little thing

something strike me today so I decide to write it down, something that I would like to remember and recall it.
sometimes, people will appreciate a little thing you do.

as usual, since I'm in psychiatry ward now, I was in hkl today doing my ward work. today my group was assigned to occupational therapy department and attached there. there was this little girl, well, she is not that little anymore as she is 20 years old this year but her mental state is still in 5 years old. she is so eccentric and act like a child. sometime I don't know I should laugh or feel sad for her, but mostly we well laugh at her act, as she being funny. Colouring and doing ABCs.

Wana, one of my groupmate suddenly asked if that little like me when we were reading case file, cause the little girl keep looking at me. But I don't think so cause she keep looking at anyone. she is being curious to anything around her. Then I sit beside her cause I was want to see what she's doing. Then she keep look at me and suddenly she hold my hand. Just a gentle holding. I was quite shock but I just smile at her. So Wana says: see, she likes you! I just smile back and when we were leaving, I went to her to say bye bye and she hold my hand and hug it and don't want to let go. this really touched me. even though her mental state is at 5 years old but she makes me feel warm. her hands are warm and her heart is warm too. if mentally disable people can should such a kindness and warm to us, why we can't do so.

then we were waiting the lift. well, I quite hate the lift in HKL building cause its not strategy at all. narrow and small yet so many people in HKL. everyone is like rush for the lift. then when I got into the lift, I pressed the open button, because in Malaysia, you will never ever see a person hold a lift for you, like NEVER. and I freaking hate people doing do, being the first got into the lift but stand at the corner and don't press hold button to prevent the door from closing before the next people come in.

so there were this parents and a kid on the wheelchair. everyone were going into the lift. I pressed the open button and wait for them to come in because they were the last. After the mother and the kid came into the lift, the father is still outside, the lift was quite packed so I tell him there are some space, he still can come in. he says its ok because he need to take the medication at the pharmacy. So after the door closed I ask the mother which floor she need to go so that I can help her press the button. she says she need to go to 1st floor same like us. in Malaysia you hardly see people offer and ask you which floor to go and help you press even they are blocking the button.

after we reach the first floor, everyone going out so I pressed the open button to let everyone out cause again, it is a rare case for people here to help you hold the lift. then a middle age lady from back of the lift on the way going out suddenly smile and say this to me: thank you for your good deeds for the day! I was stunt and I only able to respond her with 'you're welcome!' while she already far away. well, I never expect people say this to me though. mostly people might say welcome but that's rare. and suddenly this lady says like that to me, I am touched! I was wearing my doctor coat too so I guess at least I am giving impression that not all doctor are arrogant or no feel it etc.

this prove that there will always be someone who see the good things you did. just a little thing and little act, there will be a person who appreciated it, and even there will no return, I will still do it.


Good deeds are spontaneous acts of kindness, accommodation, generosity, benevolence, charity, assistance, help, sympathy or aid, all performed with the simple intention of being helpful and no expectation for compensation of any kind.

quote

I'm selfish, impatient and a little insecure. 

I make mistake, I am out of control and at times hard to handle. 

But if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best 

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p/s: I'm not emo or unhappy. i like this photo and the quote very much so I make it 2 in 1.

updates!

wanted to blog something but end up don't know what to write. haha!
going to end my peads posting in manjung after tomorrow, then next will be in putrajaya and i guess i will not have internet during that time... maybe i can study better.
3 more weeks to go to end this posting!

1 more week to go for cny!! yoooo....
shop too much!! so many new shirt, dress, skirt bla bla and accessories!!! unbelievable!
will post up more photos soon!!

rainy day + coffee = happiness

It's rainy day on Saturday!!!


I remember I used to have a blog long time ago. And most of it was written in Chinese.
I always have a habit of having another copy of everything I'm having now.
But I did not actually save all the content of the blog and one day, it's disappear just like that.
I am not able to find back the page and even I type in URL it will be error.

As usual a blog need you to fill in the title, labels bla bla bla...
And we also need to fill in the weather, our own mood and we also can use different colours for front and background for each of the blog... It was so fun.
I guess I develop my blog interest there... and now everything is gone.
Honestly I think blogger is bored that's why I put lots of photo in between my blog...

Done crapping!

雨天 + 咖啡 = 幸福
rainy day + coffee = happiness

p/s:
i'm going to buy this pair of heels! nice? i know it's nice!!

有一种女孩子

在网络上看到这样一篇的文章

  有一种女孩子在陌生人面前会很安静，很冷漠，
  在熟人面前却很放肆，很霸道，
  并喜欢没形象的哈哈大笑，
  不要认为她很粗鲁，她只是很单纯的认为，
  大家打打闹闹，骂骂笑笑，表示更亲切，更不分你我。

   这一种女孩子不谈恋爱，只在姐妹间游荡
   即使有不错的朋友，她还是无奈的笑笑
   其实她只是在不能确定自己付出的前提下
   不会接受，因为不想伤害。
 
   这一种女孩子偶尔看到街上的情侣时，
   也会幻想，也会羡慕，
   幻想着将来自己的恋爱
   该是多么的帅气，多么的温柔，多么的甜蜜！

   这一种女孩子，
   喜欢和自己的姐妹在一起打闹，大呼小叫。
   即使没有男朋友， 
   在她的世界里，也有她的骄傲！

   这种女孩子也会偶尔的忧郁，
   朋友问她怎么了 她也只会说没事
   其实她只是感觉累了，
   她只是需要一个拥抱。

   这种女孩子不会轻易恋爱，恋爱了一定会好好珍惜。
   她会骄傲的拉着他的手大街小逛，
   不要认为她放肆，
   她只是答应过姐妹们幸福要大家一块分享。
     
   这样的女孩子恋爱的时候 
   喜欢大事听男孩子的而在小事上调皮，耍赖。
   不要认为她太小气，蛮不讲理，
   其实在她调皮的习惯里已经为你收敛不少！

   这样的女孩子不允许男孩子的背叛，
   如果男孩子真的办了对不起她的事，
   她一定会狠心的离开你。
   不要怪她太绝情，
   她其实很爱你，但是卑微的爱情她不要，
   她果断的转身只是不想让你看见她滑落的泪水！

   这样的女孩子失恋的时候会在别人面前装的很好，
   大声的笑，放声的闹。
   当姐妹心疼的说：“你没事吧？”
   她会放下她所有的骄傲，趴到姐妹怀里哭。

    若你遇到了这样的女孩，
    如果你们是朋友，请原谅她平日的不理不睬，
    其实她只是不会社交，不敢打扰，
    你想想你的每一次邀约，她拒绝过你。

    如果你喜欢上她，请你不要说出来，
    因为她很幼稚，你会吓跑她。
    原谅她的冷漠，
    她只是怕伤害你！

    若她喜欢上你，请你不要在她的世界里消失。
    她没有更多的要求，不会打扰你的生活。
    她只是想静静的看着你，
    当你的观众，仅此而已。
   哭完了，苦笑一声：没想到我还会为一个男的哭。
 
    如果你们已经在一起了，
    请你好好珍惜她。
    这样的女孩子、太傻，
    请你别让她受伤。
     
    这一种女孩子就以这样的方式生活着，
    她有她的梦想，她的希望。
    一个如花儿般的女孩子，
    她时而快乐，时而忧伤；
    时而郁闷，时而疯狂；
    时而邪恶，时而善良；
    时而脆弱，时而坚强！
    你可以说她傻，也可以骂她笨，也可以说她冷，
    但是她们还是生活在自己的世界里，
    希望做一个幸福、善良的孩子！

有时不知道要怎样形容自己。
我就是活在自己的世界里！

祝我生日快乐！！！

祝我生日快乐！！！