what i'm feeling??

i really don't know what i'm feeling right now.

everything seem to feel so wrong.

i can't sit well. can't sleep well. can't even lie down well. and also can't shit well.

i can't believe myself actually over nervous and too scare until i am having diarrhea right now!!

i don't know what will the result be.

and it is coming out in less then 1 hour time.

hate everything that need to count down.

but actually everything in our life is counting.

especially counting down till the time we gonna pass away.

i know i am craping but this really make me forget everything for a little while.

even thought it's only last for few second.

it was a relief actually and i really don't know how to handle these and face all this thing!!

i never felt so scared and nervous as like this before.

and all i want is just a pass. i don't mind if it's really only 50%.

i just wanna get over this year and able to go into 3rd year and i want to live my life totally different.

and only by passing this exam i will be able to move on.

i don't want to stuck at the same place anymore...

this is another turning point in my life.

either live or dead!

yes it's that serious!

i don't ever dare to think what i'm going to do if i fail.

please... although you will say failure is just a part of our life.

no please... no more...

i sincerely pray that i will pass this exam.

not only me and all of us pass this exam.

i bug my close friends to pray for me and i hope that it really work.

i really need this. so desperate and never as desperate as this before.

until all this typing and shouting out.

i still don't know what i'm feeling.

i hate this feeling!!!