保持沉默

现在下雨着，下得越大越好。

希望大雨能把一切都冲走。

心情算是平静了。

看来这次不会那么容易回到原来的我。

自己没做错什么就好。

自己对得起自己就好。

也许外表看起来坚强，就会被人家说是恶霸，只会欺负人。

只是别人从来不会想，看起来软弱的人，才是真正的凶手。

我从来不会忘记一个人曾经说：

我看你这个样子是欺负人多一点，哪会有人欺负你。

难道我就要怪我的样子吗？

我已经选择保持沉默。

再多说什么也没有人会听进耳里的。

我相信我自己，我爱我自己，那就够了。

领悟

原来自己这么可笑。
为何去跟一只猪斗，最后受伤的是自己。

我很清楚自己在做什么。
我也知道自己的感觉是什么。
我更知道自己的第六感在做什么。

只是我太高估与自己了。
自己要知道自己的身份是什么。
别人的事去管那么多有什么用。


以后不要那么好心，不要那么好管闲事，不要鸡婆！
自己管好自己的事。
好奇心减少点，嘴巴不要那么多，手也不要那么的痒！



好心被狗咬，这个道理我领悟了。

可怜 。pathetic

我不明白为什么她一直觉得我要他的男朋友。

可怜到不知要用什么字形容。

i don't understand why she keeps on think that i want her boyfriend.

pathetic!

emo...

just browsing through the online news then i saw about this post.

about a girl who is about 17 years old and she had some rare disease.

before she passed away she wrote a song to her boyfriend.

at last, she past away.

her boyfriend knows that she like to see sunrise.

then he travel all around the countries to capture all those beautiful sunrise.

one day while he was climbing those mountain to see sunrise, he felt down.

his body was discover later, all rotten.

but inside his camera, he captured all those beautiful scene of sunrise......

is this the way the life should be?

why can't they just lived and be together in this life?

but only can be together when they are death.

i am emo......

在我最后一次 闭上眼睛之前
我想对你说我爱你
在你怀里 舍不得放弃
心里有千万语还没说给你听
我使尽全力 不想闭上眼睛
这次告别就不能再相遇
不能再陪你 但不要忘记
你曾经答应我你会好好活下去
先走了 去了好远的地方
不能再陪你看日出 等不到天亮
所有回忆 抹去 却并不容易
生死由天决定 不要太伤心
在我最后一次 闭上眼睛之前
我想对你说我爱你
在你怀里 舍不得放弃
心里有千万语还没说给你听
我使尽全力 不想闭上眼睛
这次告别就不能再相遇
不能再陪你 但不要忘记
你曾经答应我你会好好活下去
在我最后一次 闭上眼睛之前
我想对你说我爱你
在你怀里 舍不得放弃
心里有千万语还没说给你听
我使尽全力 不想闭上眼睛
这次告别就不能再相遇
不能再陪你 但不要忘记
你曾经答应我你会好好活下去
我 永远 爱你。

so blue......

关于食物 。it's all about food

有好几个朋友投诉说我到底死去哪里了，这么久没有更新我的部落格。

除了是因为生活真得很忙，也是因为我的懒惰。

few friends of mine have been complaining of me lacking updating my blog.

apart of busy life, it's also due to laziness on me

上个星期五就和jeslyn还有kuanyun到dreambox唱K。

last friday, together with jeslyn and kuanyun went to dreambox for karaoke session.

ky singing!!! hahaha~

然后我们到鸡场街走走。

边走边看的，原来鸡场街有那么多东西看，也有很多东西吃。

then we went to Jonker walk.

just walk around then side-seeing, there is so many things so see in Jonker Street, lot's of food too.

cendol

chicken curry

laksa

seafood curry

egg tart!

this is nice!!! and cute!

fried cempedak.

i wanted to buy this for my sis... she sure will like it.

but... i didn't. haha...

very special design

原本说星期五已经和朋友出去了，周末就要留在家读书的。

可是敏的哥哥，杰祥，在星期六晚上打电话来说他在马六甲。

都朋友一场，我就只好答应星期日带他和他朋友到马六甲走走。

since i went out on friday and had fun, i plan to stay at home and study on weekend.

but mei's brother, xiang, phone me on saturday and says that he is in malacca now.

since we are friends, so i have to promise him to bring him around in malacca together with his friends.

阿祥说要吃baba nyonya餐。

我们大约是一点到那间店，可是老板说送菜的货车还没到。

要等就要半个小时。

我就带他们到葡萄牙村那里看看。

可是在白天吃海鲜有点奇怪，而且很多摊位都还没开。

xiang says he wants to fry nyonya baba's food.

we went to the shop around 11am, but then owner says that the vegetable is not yet arrive in their shop.

if we want then we have to wait for another half an hour.

so i brought them to Portuguese settlement which we can have seafood.

but day time eat seafood feel so weird, also most of the stall not open yet.

最后，阿祥说要吃cendol。

那我只好带他们到鸡场街附近那里很有名的店。

那里的curry也很好吃，黄梨饼也很好吃。

at last, xiang says wants to eat cendol.

so i bring them to a famous shop near Jonker street there.

their curry was very nice, the pineapple tart is delicious too.

吃完后我们就到鸡场街走走看看的。

他们也买了一点小手信。

after that we just walk around Jonker street.

they bought some souvenir there.

真不知道要带他们去哪里。

马六甲也没有什么地方好走的。

要不就一直吃。

而且当天是周末，街上的车辆和人群是多到不知道要怎么形容的。

旅游巴士整街都是，旅客更不用说啦！

seriously i don't know where else to bring them.

malacca don't have much place to go around.

unless you keep on eat and eat.

and it was weekends, the street is full with cars and people.

there are lots of tourist bus around the stress, and of course the tourist too.

马六甲人周末可以的话都留在家。

malaccan will only stay at home on weekend if can.

最后我就带他们到最近刚开张的豆奶店吃点豆花。

那里的豆花还很不错！

招牌豆腐更好吃！

然后老板娘很好心，阿祥的朋友点了布丁，老板娘说布丁是有，可是好几天的了。

她担心我们吃到不好吃的，所以不打算要卖那布丁。　

lastly i bring them to a newly open soya shop.

their tao-fu-fa is quite delicious!

their shop's famous to-fu was very very nice too!

the shop owner was so good, xiang's friend order a puding, the owner says there is puding, but it was made a few days ago.

she worried that we might ate the undelicious puding, so she don't want to sell the puding.

油炸鬼

招牌豆腐

原味豆腐花

水果豆腐花

南瓜豆腐花

绿豆爽汤圆

黑芝麻豆腐花

tsk tsk tsk...

最后我只好放他们在mp那里，因为没有地方可去了。

他们就自己在那里走走逛逛的，我也要回去准备上去cyber。

then i just drop them at mp as no more places to go.

they just walk around there themselves as i need to go back and prepare to come back to cyber.

我寂寞好了......

突然在这个夜晚下起雨来。

下的雨有时特别的大。

好像很久没有这样一个人，在夜深时听着下雨声，树叶被大风吹的沙沙声。

有一段时间都不会觉得寂寞的。

今天却就那么很突然的寂寞了。

那么巧的下载了蔡旻佑的“寂寞，好了”。

有几句的歌词很适合形容现在的我。

蔡旻佑/寂寞，好了

作詞：張天成 / 作曲：彭學斌

拼命的上網 悶壞的胸口讓我 想大聲的吶喊
我努力不放 你冷淡 你讓分手就這樣
我連做夢也感覺受傷

一年過了 還是一天 計算著慌張
計程車上的音響 我們最愛的情歌
這一刻卻重重擊破思念的心臟

夜深了我怎麼辦 寂寞了誰在身旁
心情變得好複雜 想她 念她 恨她
一個人你害怕嗎 細數過滿天星光
說好永遠不分開 多假 多假 多假
讓記憶長出翅膀飛翔 心放空了 寂寞好了

堅強外表下 我脆弱 情人節開始失常
別人慶祝我卻很失落 秋天過了 冬天漫長…
歡愉而感傷 我們天真的勇敢 我們追求的夢想
捨不得也只能收藏旅行的時光

夜深了我怎麼辦 寂寞了誰在身旁
心情變得好複雜 想她 念她 恨她
一個人你害怕嗎 細數過滿天星光
說好永遠不分開 多假 多假 多假
讓記憶長出翅膀飛翔 心放空了 寂寞好了

寂寞感冒全都可以好的
愛多甜 傷多痛 都釋放

夜深了我怎麼辦 寂寞了誰在身旁
心情變得好複雜 想她 念她 恨她
一個人你害怕嗎 細數過滿天星光
說好永遠不分開 多假 多假 多假
讓記憶長出翅膀飛翔 沒有了 心放空了 寂寞好了

我寂寞好了......

佳敏21岁生日。carmen's 21st birthday

9月19日是佳敏的生日。
她请了一群在MMU和她同校的朋友和我这个外星人。
整桌的人我只认识3个。
可是很快的我就融入他们那群朋友。
每个都疯疯癫癫的，所以特别容易熟。
19th september is carmen's birthday.
she invited her MMU friends and also me this alien to join a dinner.
among those i only know 3 of them.
but i mix quite well with her friends.
everyone was so sporting and fun, that's why we mix very well.

















我们在‘兴食馆’吃晚餐，然后到对面的Station One喝茶聊天。
我想我们拍照、自拍多过聊天喝茶吧！
we ate in 'restaurant Xing', then we go to Station One opposite of it for chatting and had a cup of tea.
but i think we took tonnes of photos rather then chatting.



然后快要到十二点午夜时，我们为佳敏庆祝生日。
唱生日歌、出蜡烛、切蛋糕，当然还有拍照！！！
然后送她生日礼物。
when it was around midnight we celebrated carmen's birthday.
we sing birthday song, blow candles, cut the cake, and of course camwhoring.
then we gave her the present that we prepared.



佳敏可说是我从小到大的朋友。
我们在我们妈妈肚子里就认识的。
想不通怎样认识吧！哈哈哈！
carmen is my longest friend.
we knew each other since we are in our mom's wombs.
can't imagine it right! hahaha!


我们俩都是九月的宝宝。
当时我们的家人都住在同一个住宅区里。
我们的妈妈怀孕时就常常到附近的游乐园散步。
然后就认识了。
we are both september baby.
that time our family stay in the same housing area.
when our mom was pregnant they use to walk at the playground in the evening.
so this is how they know each other.


过后，我们出世后，也在那个游乐园一起玩耍。
每个傍晚都回到那里。
幼稚园时也是读同一间学校。
上小学时，我们同样学校，同班几年。
就连补习也是一样的地方。
after we was born, we play together in the same playground
every evening having fun there.
when we was in kindergarten we study same school.
in primary also same school, few years of same class.
we even having tuition at the same place.


记得她的妈妈时常在我去补习。
有时去补习的路上，我们在车里吃些小吃，面包什么的。
她也会分一半给我。
有时我的保姆会自制红豆冰条，我也会给她一个。
当时真得很愉快。
i remember her mom use to fetch us to tuition.
on the way to tuition we will eat in the car, snack or bread.
she will give half to me.
and my aunt that take care of me will do some red bean ice cream, i will give her one.
it was so happy that time.


到中学时我们才分开。
虽然不同学校，我们还是有联络的。
生日或有节日时就寄寄卡片。
until secondary school we were separated.
although we study in different school, we still keep in touch.
whenever there is festival celebration or birthday, we will send cards to each other.


这一次见面，好像是小学毕业后第一次见面。
我们就好像老朋友那样，一点也不会尴尬。
this time we meet, seem like the first meeting we have after graduate from primary school.
we still like old friend having chatting, don't have any gap between us.


遇回老朋友真的很开心的！
it's so happy to meet back with old friend!

21岁生日。21th birthday

9月7日2009的生日这得多得很特别。
虽然是21岁生日，我没有很隆重的庆祝。
没有像别的朋友那样开party。
只是简简单单和家人吃了大餐，然后和几个要好的朋友庆祝。
21岁生日还不是另一天，没有什么特别的。
每天都可以是生日，每一天快乐就好！

9th september 2009 birthday is so wonderful.
although is my 21th birthday, but i didn't celebrate it as grand as others.
no party celebration or clubbing like other friends.
just a simple dinner with my family, and also a few close friends.
21th birthday is just another normal day, nothing special.
everyday can be my birthday, everyday happy is more important.





我干妈买了蛋糕给我，还以为带上去和赛城的朋友庆祝。
可是没想到的事，他们为我准备的生日庆典更隆重。

my godmother bought a cake for me, i thought of bring it to cyber and celebrate with friends there.
but i didn't thought that they also prepare a celebration for me.




那天傍晚我也往常一样回到赛程。
敏打了几次电话催我快点回去。
我还以为我们一起去吃个晚餐，火锅什么的。

that evening i went back as usual in the evening.
mei called me a few time ask me to go back earlier.
i thought that we going to have a dinner or steamboat or something like that






melvin


ah low can't cook so roll the tissue! hahaha...


ah y


amanda


the paip in the toilet suddenly pop out


part time pumbler


they don't let me do anything. hahaha~


can't cook? prepare drinks!


怎么知道到ah y的家时，才知道我们会在他的家吃。
他们准备了几道菜，每个人轮流煮。
不会煮的就在厨房帮忙。
ah y，ah mei 和amanda炒米粉和炒菜，还有炸鸡。
melvin煮加哩。
不会煮的ah loh 和han siang就帮头帮尾的。
然后大家很开心的一起吃。

when i was in ah y's house, only get to know that we are having dinner in their house.
they prepared a few dishes, everyone take turn to cook.
those who can't cook help preparing dishes in the kitchen.
ah y, ah mei and amanda fried mee hoon and vege and also fried chicken.
melvin cook curry!
ah loh and hansiang that can't cook helping aside, preparing food.
then we all have dinner together.



curry!


fried chicken


vege


mee hoon




没想到的是他们也有买蛋糕，而且是世界唯一独二的蛋糕。
在外面买不到，要定做也做不到。
他们到secret recipi买店里所有的蛋糕个一块。
然后形成一个圆形的蛋糕。
真的有够特别的了，每个人看到了那蛋糕都说他们也想要。
i didn't thought that they will buy cake, and also the only one cake avaiable in the world.
you will never get it outside, can't make it even you want to booked for a cake like that.
they went to secret recipi shop, then buy all of the cake there one slice each.
then make it round shape like a cake.
it's so special, everyone saw it want a cake like mine.


the only one birthday cake in the world!!!


吃饱后我们就吃到蛋糕。
不知道是谁的建议说，要不然我们围着桌子，一圈又一圈的走。
蛋糕放在中间，每个人都有份吃到每一种口味的蛋糕。
顿时每个人都high起来。
还把整个过程拍下来。
after dinner we ate the cake.
don't know got give a suggestion that, why don't we walk around the table.
the cake put in the middle of the table, then everyone have the chance to taste each cake.
everyone was so high.
we even record the whole event.













每个人一直笑，一直玩，一直闹。
然后谁到镜头前面就要祝贺我。
就这样一起闹到很疯狂。
一直笑......
everyone was laughing, having fun, and crayzing.
then everyone meet their turn in front of the camera, then they have to wish me.
just like this everyone have fun till the max.
and keep on laughing......



the girls



the guys


我想，我的生日真的很与众不同。
即使没有开party庆生，可是和几个要好的朋友一起庆祝也很好玩。
虽然不是惊喜式的，可是这比惊喜还要惊喜。
完全没有计划的，很自然的，很开心的一起庆祝。

for me, i celebrate my birthday differently.
although there is no party celebration, but celebrate together with a few friends also very fun.
even though it isn't a surprise party, but it is much more surprise then the real surprise.
everything is not planned, it's so natural, and full of happiness of celebration.






everyone is so exciting about the cake! hahaha~





最重要的还是在一起。
the most important thing is we are together.




enjoy this video!