安息吧！rest in peace!

真不知道要怎样写下我的想法。
Really don’t know how to write down my thought.

自从Michael Jackson的死讯传出后，我的情绪也受到影响。
我都不知道他的离去会给我带来那么大的影响，因为之前我都不是他的粉丝。
Since Michael Jackson death was spread out, it influence my emotion.
I don’t realize that his death could bring such an effect to me, because before this I am not his fans at all.

原本很多东西要写的，可是现在却不知道要写什么。
I have a lot thing to write at first, but now I don’t know what to write.

唉…
Sigh…

除了听到他负面的消息，我的年代很少报道他在80年代时的风光。
我疯狂寻找他的一点一滴，还看了他的访问和演唱会，也听了他的歌。
最后我不能说我不是他的粉丝，反而他成了我的偶像，超越了周杰伦在我心目中的地位。
我想向他学习。像他那样的慈悲心。
像上帝那样，在人世上受尽所有的痛苦，却还是无条件的帮助需要帮助的人。
Other then heard about his negative news, I seldom heard about his great carrier at the 80-an.
I search everything about him crazily, watch his interview and concert, and listen to his song.
At last, I can’t say that I am not his fans at all, even look up him as my idol, higher range then Jay in my heart.
I want to learn from him, as sympathy as him.
He is god-like, suffer whole his life in this world, but he still help people without hope for any return.

他的负面消息被媒体扭曲，就为了要让他们的杂志卖得畅销。
当他风光的时候，媒体大力宣传，从他身上得到利益。
有负面消息时，把他批的一文不值。
当他过世时，媒体却大力赞扬他、夸他，一百八十度转变。
His negative news was manipulated by the media, so that their magazine can sell greatly.
When he was full of flame, media used him, get something from him.
When there was negative news, they describe him until worthlessness.
But when he passed away, media start to say how great he were when he was alive, 180。different.

看不出吗？他身边的人都想要在他身上得到利益。
他爸爸，当他是摇钱树。
控告他非礼的两家人，还不是冲着他的钱而来。
他的第二妻子也还不是一样吗？
难怪他没有安全感。
Isn’t everyone realized? Everyone near him just wants benefit from him.
His dad treats him as money-shaking-tree.
Those two families who charged him molesting cases, they come for his wealth.
Isn’t the same thing happened to his second wife?
No wonder he feels unsecured.

不是到为什么我对他特别有感触。
我总觉得别人不曾真正了解他。
他有老人的思想，小孩的心理，成人的身躯。
他的善良是那么的单纯。
就是因为他有小孩的心理，对他身边的人付出那么多关怀，却遭到被判。
I don’t know why I have such a special feeling towards him.
I always feel that people don’t really understand him.
He has old man thought, psychologically child-like, adult body.
He is so kind and pure.
This is because he is child-like, he care so much about people around him, but he was betrayed.

他不想长大，就像小飞侠的世界，每个人永远不会长大。
可是我相信很多人都不想长大。
我也不想。我身边也有朋友不想长大。
就连我有童年的人都回不想长大，更何况是失去童年的他。
但他不曾后悔他的选择。
He don’t want to grow up, just like Peter Pan world, people never grow up.
But I believe a lot of people don’t want to grow up.
I don’t want grow up too. Some friends around me don’t want to grow up too.
Even I have childhood I also thought of not growing up, what about him which have no childhood at all.
But he never regrets what he chooses.

要是有看他的访问的话就是到他根本就不是记者所写得那样。
他是很单纯、很单纯的想法。
就是因为他的单纯和天真，却害他一次又一次别人冤枉。
他对小孩的爱，却被人扭曲。
他只不过不想那些小孩和他一样没有童年，失去生命中很重要的一部分。
可是，外面的人都不是这样看法的。
If you ever saw this interview then you will know he is not as what as the media describe him.
He is just so pure, pure and naïve.
He is pure and naïve, so people use this as their advantage.
His loves toward kids but people manipulate it.
Basically he just don’t wants all the kids don’t have childhood like him, he missed a really important part of his life
But all the outsiders don’t really think like him.

可是他有否正面回应？
他不管记者怎么报道他，只要自己是清白的就可以了。
可是那么多的讳言流语有谁会受得了？
Did he ever reply about all of those tabloids?
He don’t care what media talking about them, it’s enough that himself know about the truth.
But who can ever bare with all those nonsense?

当一个人成名了，难道就要付出这么大的代价？
When people become famous, is one have to pay such a price?

他在世时，商家靠他捞一把。
就连他过世，商家还是不放过他。
他就像故事里的爱心树，一辈子都在付出。
无代价、无怨言的付出。
不要求任何的回报。
就是全世界的人都误解他都没关系。
People used him when he was alive.
Even when he passed away, people are still using him.
He just seems to be like The Giving Tree, pouring his whole life.
Without wanting any return or any complain.
He doesn’t even care if the whole world doesn’t believe him.

我知道我好像很过分的在夸他。
这只是我的想法，以我自己的感觉来了解他。
直到他去世后我才认识他。是不是很讽刺？
可是，我想，最重要的是了解他所要传达的信息。
他很多首歌的歌词都很有意思。
所以我说我想像他一样，有那样的慈悲心、有耐心。
I know I am over praise about him.
This is just my point of view, based on my own feeling trying to know him.
Wait until he passed away only I start to know about him, isn’t that sarcastic?
But, I think, the most important thing is understand what he trying to tell us.
A lot of his songs are so meaningful.
That’s why I say I want to be like him, with those sympathy, patience.


他站在舞台，拥有那么多的观众，却更显得他的渺小。
难怪他会那么的孤独。
He stands on the stage, having so many fans, it just shows that he is so small.
No wonder he feels so lonely.

当他去世时，世界真的是停止旋转。
When he passed away, the world did stop.

他就像耶稣，一辈子都在付出，为人着想，直到被人谋害。
可是，他却没想耶稣那样，去世的三天后复活。
He just like Jesus, giving everything the whole life, thinks for other people, until he was betrayed.
But, he didn’t rise up like Jesus after three days he passed away.