保持沉默

现在下雨着，下得越大越好。

希望大雨能把一切都冲走。

心情算是平静了。

看来这次不会那么容易回到原来的我。

自己没做错什么就好。

自己对得起自己就好。

也许外表看起来坚强，就会被人家说是恶霸，只会欺负人。

只是别人从来不会想，看起来软弱的人，才是真正的凶手。

我从来不会忘记一个人曾经说：

我看你这个样子是欺负人多一点，哪会有人欺负你。

难道我就要怪我的样子吗？

我已经选择保持沉默。

再多说什么也没有人会听进耳里的。

我相信我自己，我爱我自己，那就够了。

领悟

原来自己这么可笑。
为何去跟一只猪斗，最后受伤的是自己。

我很清楚自己在做什么。
我也知道自己的感觉是什么。
我更知道自己的第六感在做什么。

只是我太高估与自己了。
自己要知道自己的身份是什么。
别人的事去管那么多有什么用。


以后不要那么好心，不要那么好管闲事，不要鸡婆！
自己管好自己的事。
好奇心减少点，嘴巴不要那么多，手也不要那么的痒！



好心被狗咬，这个道理我领悟了。

可怜 。pathetic

我不明白为什么她一直觉得我要他的男朋友。

可怜到不知要用什么字形容。

i don't understand why she keeps on think that i want her boyfriend.

pathetic!

emo...

just browsing through the online news then i saw about this post.

about a girl who is about 17 years old and she had some rare disease.

before she passed away she wrote a song to her boyfriend.

at last, she past away.

her boyfriend knows that she like to see sunrise.

then he travel all around the countries to capture all those beautiful sunrise.

one day while he was climbing those mountain to see sunrise, he felt down.

his body was discover later, all rotten.

but inside his camera, he captured all those beautiful scene of sunrise......

is this the way the life should be?

why can't they just lived and be together in this life?

but only can be together when they are death.

i am emo......

在我最后一次 闭上眼睛之前
我想对你说我爱你
在你怀里 舍不得放弃
心里有千万语还没说给你听
我使尽全力 不想闭上眼睛
这次告别就不能再相遇
不能再陪你 但不要忘记
你曾经答应我你会好好活下去
先走了 去了好远的地方
不能再陪你看日出 等不到天亮
所有回忆 抹去 却并不容易
生死由天决定 不要太伤心
在我最后一次 闭上眼睛之前
我想对你说我爱你
在你怀里 舍不得放弃
心里有千万语还没说给你听
我使尽全力 不想闭上眼睛
这次告别就不能再相遇
不能再陪你 但不要忘记
你曾经答应我你会好好活下去
在我最后一次 闭上眼睛之前
我想对你说我爱你
在你怀里 舍不得放弃
心里有千万语还没说给你听
我使尽全力 不想闭上眼睛
这次告别就不能再相遇
不能再陪你 但不要忘记
你曾经答应我你会好好活下去
我 永远 爱你。

so blue......

关于食物 。it's all about food

有好几个朋友投诉说我到底死去哪里了，这么久没有更新我的部落格。

除了是因为生活真得很忙，也是因为我的懒惰。

few friends of mine have been complaining of me lacking updating my blog.

apart of busy life, it's also due to laziness on me

上个星期五就和jeslyn还有kuanyun到dreambox唱K。

last friday, together with jeslyn and kuanyun went to dreambox for karaoke session.

ky singing!!! hahaha~

然后我们到鸡场街走走。

边走边看的，原来鸡场街有那么多东西看，也有很多东西吃。

then we went to Jonker walk.

just walk around then side-seeing, there is so many things so see in Jonker Street, lot's of food too.

cendol

chicken curry

laksa

seafood curry

egg tart!

this is nice!!! and cute!

fried cempedak.

i wanted to buy this for my sis... she sure will like it.

but... i didn't. haha...

very special design

原本说星期五已经和朋友出去了，周末就要留在家读书的。

可是敏的哥哥，杰祥，在星期六晚上打电话来说他在马六甲。

都朋友一场，我就只好答应星期日带他和他朋友到马六甲走走。

since i went out on friday and had fun, i plan to stay at home and study on weekend.

but mei's brother, xiang, phone me on saturday and says that he is in malacca now.

since we are friends, so i have to promise him to bring him around in malacca together with his friends.

阿祥说要吃baba nyonya餐。

我们大约是一点到那间店，可是老板说送菜的货车还没到。

要等就要半个小时。

我就带他们到葡萄牙村那里看看。

可是在白天吃海鲜有点奇怪，而且很多摊位都还没开。

xiang says he wants to fry nyonya baba's food.

we went to the shop around 11am, but then owner says that the vegetable is not yet arrive in their shop.

if we want then we have to wait for another half an hour.

so i brought them to Portuguese settlement which we can have seafood.

but day time eat seafood feel so weird, also most of the stall not open yet.

最后，阿祥说要吃cendol。

那我只好带他们到鸡场街附近那里很有名的店。

那里的curry也很好吃，黄梨饼也很好吃。

at last, xiang says wants to eat cendol.

so i bring them to a famous shop near Jonker street there.

their curry was very nice, the pineapple tart is delicious too.

吃完后我们就到鸡场街走走看看的。

他们也买了一点小手信。

after that we just walk around Jonker street.

they bought some souvenir there.

真不知道要带他们去哪里。

马六甲也没有什么地方好走的。

要不就一直吃。

而且当天是周末，街上的车辆和人群是多到不知道要怎么形容的。

旅游巴士整街都是，旅客更不用说啦！

seriously i don't know where else to bring them.

malacca don't have much place to go around.

unless you keep on eat and eat.

and it was weekends, the street is full with cars and people.

there are lots of tourist bus around the stress, and of course the tourist too.

马六甲人周末可以的话都留在家。

malaccan will only stay at home on weekend if can.

最后我就带他们到最近刚开张的豆奶店吃点豆花。

那里的豆花还很不错！

招牌豆腐更好吃！

然后老板娘很好心，阿祥的朋友点了布丁，老板娘说布丁是有，可是好几天的了。

她担心我们吃到不好吃的，所以不打算要卖那布丁。　

lastly i bring them to a newly open soya shop.

their tao-fu-fa is quite delicious!

their shop's famous to-fu was very very nice too!

the shop owner was so good, xiang's friend order a puding, the owner says there is puding, but it was made a few days ago.

she worried that we might ate the undelicious puding, so she don't want to sell the puding.

油炸鬼

招牌豆腐

原味豆腐花

水果豆腐花

南瓜豆腐花

绿豆爽汤圆

黑芝麻豆腐花

tsk tsk tsk...

最后我只好放他们在mp那里，因为没有地方可去了。

他们就自己在那里走走逛逛的，我也要回去准备上去cyber。

then i just drop them at mp as no more places to go.

they just walk around there themselves as i need to go back and prepare to come back to cyber.

我寂寞好了......

突然在这个夜晚下起雨来。

下的雨有时特别的大。

好像很久没有这样一个人，在夜深时听着下雨声，树叶被大风吹的沙沙声。

有一段时间都不会觉得寂寞的。

今天却就那么很突然的寂寞了。

那么巧的下载了蔡旻佑的“寂寞，好了”。

有几句的歌词很适合形容现在的我。

蔡旻佑/寂寞，好了

作詞：張天成 / 作曲：彭學斌

拼命的上網 悶壞的胸口讓我 想大聲的吶喊
我努力不放 你冷淡 你讓分手就這樣
我連做夢也感覺受傷

一年過了 還是一天 計算著慌張
計程車上的音響 我們最愛的情歌
這一刻卻重重擊破思念的心臟

夜深了我怎麼辦 寂寞了誰在身旁
心情變得好複雜 想她 念她 恨她
一個人你害怕嗎 細數過滿天星光
說好永遠不分開 多假 多假 多假
讓記憶長出翅膀飛翔 心放空了 寂寞好了

堅強外表下 我脆弱 情人節開始失常
別人慶祝我卻很失落 秋天過了 冬天漫長…
歡愉而感傷 我們天真的勇敢 我們追求的夢想
捨不得也只能收藏旅行的時光

夜深了我怎麼辦 寂寞了誰在身旁
心情變得好複雜 想她 念她 恨她
一個人你害怕嗎 細數過滿天星光
說好永遠不分開 多假 多假 多假
讓記憶長出翅膀飛翔 心放空了 寂寞好了

寂寞感冒全都可以好的
愛多甜 傷多痛 都釋放

夜深了我怎麼辦 寂寞了誰在身旁
心情變得好複雜 想她 念她 恨她
一個人你害怕嗎 細數過滿天星光
說好永遠不分開 多假 多假 多假
讓記憶長出翅膀飛翔 沒有了 心放空了 寂寞好了

我寂寞好了......