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Wednesday, January 22, 2014

MBBS Final Professional Examination Part 1

As the title above, I PASSED!





Nobody will ever know how it feels! I have go through so much for this. Nobody will understand how I feel day before exam, during exam and right before the result was announced!


We just finish our last paper today. Result was suppose to come out tomorrow. However, at 3pm, our batch leader suddenly ask us to come back to college because result will be announced at 4pm!!! I was so not prepared for that. I think I have panic attack.


I have phobia. It was all like 3 years back again, when I failed my first Professional exam, where I was left alone. Then I climb up myself. Did I ever thought of give up? Yes! Definitely! And the person who always stay beside me are my parents. Today is the day I repay them and myself. Nobody ever go through what I went through. Nobody know how deep I fall. I am lucky that I am able to climb up back, prove that I can do it.


Until I heard my matrix number being call out. It was such a relief. I wasn't confident at all. Of course I hope I passed but you will never know until it really happened.





Thank you very much for everyone who assist me along the journey. Thank you to my discussion group that really help me during discussion. I am sure I will not make it if I did not join the discussion group. I am glad that my housemate and I passed the exam all together. Even though we have argument and disagreement, we are still friends.




Coincidentally, we all wear green!!! We never planned it and did not even realize it until our batchmate point it out! Glad that we all passed! They sit beside me just like the arrangement you see in the photo. My name was called first. It was such a relief with palpitation. Then Wana's name was called, she broked down and cry on my shoulder. 3 minutes later, Deep's name was called and she also cry and hugged me. Then both of them was like crying and hugging me and Mr Hazem, our Surgery lecturer saw and he smiled......





There are a few who did not pass and I hope that they will passed their resit paper. I totally understand that because I have gone through it... Hope to see them in Sem 10.


Finally, I have 3 weeks holidays and finally I am able to celebrate Chinese New Year for 15 days straight!!!!!!

Wednesday, December 5, 2012

motivated

have such a surprise from Dr Siti when she look up to me and say: Melissa, you have mature a lot since year 1!
i was like: what??
she says she sees me mature a lot since last time.
i am really pleased Dr Siti says that to me. Really made my day. Never will have people really see through me and today, she did it.

so... i will work really hard for the exam in next 2 weeks!!!

motivation just kicks in!



Thursday, April 19, 2012

comm med

community medicine really torturing me! the most crazy posting ever. i first thought that comm med maybe will be more relaxing or better but...... i am totally wrong!
have to do proposal, literature review, find tonnes of journal!!! and worst my group's topic keep on change because our beloved lecturer want us to do topic A but she don't wanna tell us directly. so we prepare topic B and then keep correct our objective. at last she ask 'you don't want to try out topic A?'. fine! finally we know what she wants! say earlier la! wasted our time for monday and tuesday! and the dateline in on thursday night, we have to present on friday!
fine fine fine. done of complaint. back to work. have no good sleep at all for this week!!

Tuesday, August 9, 2011

大学第三年

大学第三年的第一天,好像蜜月期。十一点之前就上完课了。还以为会开始很忙碌的生活,可是第一个星期只是有关去医院的简介。


开始害怕也开始担心。好像前两年所读的全忘记了。不知道在医院时,不会回答教授的问题会不会被骂得狗血淋头。所以乘这个星期还没那么繁忙,我还是好好的复习最基本的知识。


学院还是还没安排我们的住宿。真得很笨!教授和学校管理员没有沟通好令到我们还是没有住宿,还好我可以住在我朋友的家,要不然真不知道要睡哪里。


未来的路好像很模糊。已经开始在害怕每一天的到来。
我......可以面对一切吗?

Friday, August 5, 2011

Oath taking ceremony




Today we had a Oath Taking Ceremony as we are going into clinical years, and we signed the oath.
Officially i am 3rd year medical student and I will be going to hospital soon.
The first posting I get is Internal Medicine. Well, seniors say Internal Med is hell, I should see if its really a hell.
There are also people saying after we finish our Pro-exam and start with Internal Med is an advantage for us. Because we get to revise back what we studied for pro-exam and its easier for us to remember back the knowledge.




Timetable has out but we don't even know where is our exactly posting. Even though I know I get Internal Med but I don't know if my subgroup is assigned to Terendak Hospital or Putrajaya Hospital.
Yes! This is the type of management of my college. They even didn't provide accommodation for us during orientation week and next week. how stupid!





Luckily I stayed with Ocean in her room where she is sharing with Sin Toun.
I think I am going to stay with her for next week again...


These few days lot of people saying I look different, as in my outer look.
Some say I am prettier and some say I look stunning.
Hopefully my result for this year will be STUNNING too!!

Thursday, June 16, 2011

I want to see you in clinical year!

When I was in the last station for OCSE today, it was Mr. AAA who is the invigilator for the station.
I have to perform upper limb motor sensory examination and I think I was able to do it quite well.

But what I wanted to say is after the exam, Mr. AAA actually ask me go over his place.
So I walk near him and he ask how's my pro-exam, is't ok so far?
I say that I am not very sure about it.
He say: don't worry! OSCE will help you. you did very well! And, I say thank you.
The most important thing is he says: I want to see you in clinical year!!
I was so touched when I heard this!!! It was so encouraging!!!
I say I hope I can go clinical year too!
Then he say: don't worry! you do very well today!

I am very looking forward to learn from him! I really hope I can go to clinical year.

Thank you very much Sir! Your words touched me!

Thursday, June 17, 2010

what i'm feeling??

i really don't know what i'm feeling right now.
everything seem to feel so wrong.
i can't sit well. can't sleep well. can't even lie down well. and also can't shit well.
i can't believe myself actually over nervous and too scare until i am having diarrhea right now!!

i don't know what will the result be.
and it is coming out in less then 1 hour time.
hate everything that need to count down.
but actually everything in our life is counting.
especially counting down till the time we gonna pass away.

i know i am craping but this really make me forget everything for a little while.
even thought it's only last for few second.
it was a relief actually and i really don't know how to handle these and face all this thing!!

i never felt so scared and nervous as like this before.
and all i want is just a pass. i don't mind if it's really only 50%.
i just wanna get over this year and able to go into 3rd year and i want to live my life totally different.
and only by passing this exam i will be able to move on.
i don't want to stuck at the same place anymore...
this is another turning point in my life.
either live or dead!
yes it's that serious!

i don't ever dare to think what i'm going to do if i fail.
please... although you will say failure is just a part of our life.
no please... no more...
i sincerely pray that i will pass this exam.
not only me and all of us pass this exam.
i bug my close friends to pray for me and i hope that it really work.
i really need this. so desperate and never as desperate as this before.

until all this typing and shouting out.
i still don't know what i'm feeling.
i hate this feeling!!!

Thursday, April 29, 2010

sunathon 2009

end of last year around mid december, my college organize Le Tour de Johor Health Carnival in Felcra Bukit Kepong. this is not the first time my college organize health carnival but it was my first time joining this carnival 'full time'.

we have to stay there for 3 days 2 nights. it was a fantastic experience.





we have start to prepare ourselves and go for training for the Sunathon, which was the most grand event among the carnival. as we will assist doctor in sunat-ing or so call circumcised, we have to sit for examination and practical before we even go for the sunathon. we start our practical once every week.

i pass my test with flying colour... fine i was crapping. i wasn't the top scorer but i manage to get myself through the test. and proudly i can say i was the only chinese that went through the test! (fine i know my college have very few chinese!)





2 of my friends have promise me that we will go together no matter what. Mya and I passed the test but Wanda is not able to pass it. due to limited place, we have to pass our exam so that we will able to join the carnival. so we try very hard to find a place to squeeze her in. she even give up and say she is not going for the carnival. finally we found a spot for her in first-aid. she will be teaching the people there about first-aid.



see! how well wanda become a first-aid teacher!



first day
all of us gather at college early morning and finally, we are on the way to Johor! we stop at a Gunung Ledang waterfall before we reach Bukit Kepong and had lots of fun there. we totally forgot about our examination that will be held right after our trip.

















we reach Bukit Kepong in the late afternoon and we all gather in the school there. all of us will be divide into 2-6 people each, and we will be given to the family there as foster children. they will be our foster parent for this 3 days. they will have to provide place for us to sleep and also food.

i was lucky enough to get a great parent. there were very open minded and they treat us well. my foster sister were Sheila, Sharon and Sara. hmmmm... all of their name start with S!









our foster mom prepare a very great meal for dinner. she doesn't let us help her. this is the first time she get to be foster parent so she was quite excited actually. she totally treat us great!















at night we had briefing in the school hall and we have to do preparation for tomorrow morning event.
for sunathon team, we have to prepare needles, swab, cotton and so on for tomorrow sunat event. we had a briefing from our team leader and get well rest that night.










second day
we woke up early in the morning and our foster parent are preparing breakfast for us. then, we headed to the school for the last preparation before the sunat take place.
we were brief again by team leader on what to do and he also repeat the procedure for us.













kids are waiting for their turn nervously...


as this is the first time i was involve in this and also ever first time in sunating people, it was such a great experience for me and i was very excited!





i am lucky cause i get a great leader in our team which was Juwaidi. he has a lots of experience in doing this sunathon as he join most of the program which was held by our college. he really guide us through the process.



this is Juwaidi and you can hardly see me because i was block by him! damn!


every group will have 4 people. everyone will have his task and responsibilities.
the first person will be the leader and he will have to do local anesthesia on the patient.
he also have to remove smegma(buildup of skin and other crud found between the foreskin and penis), clean the surface then expose fully the whole 'thing' (corona radiata).
there will be 2 assistant which have to clean the area with iodine and also drape it.
the last person will have to try their best to comfort the kids, to distract him for being scare or think about the sunat.



see! block by him again!


so the first task for me was as the comforter. i mean, i have to try my best to comfort the patient. i wasn't doing very good as first because i have out of topic to 'discuss' with the kids after few minutes, then the doctor came and start his cutting or some will use cautery.
while he was cutting, he asked my name and he start to teach me the ways of talking with them and distract them. after that i did quite well.



this is use to cautery skin as it will stop bleeding faster then cutting.


after the doctor cautery, then the first person will again have to suture it. after suturing, we ahve to clean that part before the patient was send off for half an hour observation.

after the a few patient, Juwaidi ask us to rotate our task so that everyone will have the fair chance to do everything. he asked me to be the first person, which i have to do anesthesia on that patient. that was the part where i have totally no confident in it. this is because we have to inject into 3 nerves of the patient and if we missed............. think about the consequence!





so with his guide, i think i manage to do my task well. when came to suture part, my hand was shaking like hell! i try my very best to control the shaking but it still shake nonstop. i am not nervous or scare or what but it just shake. maybe i ate too much chicken legs?



cleaning up


i also get the chance to clean and drape. but suturing is much more exciting. hahaha...











so in the afternoon after we've done all the sunat, we went and walk around the carnival and also the first aid area. there are booth too for the kids to have fun and also colouring contest.

















see how hard this kids trying to learn the first-aid! haha


medical check up!




along the way back, we went to a villager's place as there are having wedding ceremony. according to my foster mom, they will be having the celebration for 3 day straight. wow!









at night, we have this nasi dulang where all of us will be sharing a big plate of rice and eat together.














third day
this is the last day and i had photo with my foster parents and foster sister.
we had such a great time and our foster parent are very good. they even give us present before we leave. even though it wasn't a big or expensive present, but those kind hearted really touched us.