Monday, October 29, 2007

怪人!

在马来西亚很多人都不对政治没有兴趣。
我以前更本就不知道什么是政治。
现在我已经十九岁了,慢慢的我也接触到政治。
我会思考,我更有判断能力。
我知道的是马来西亚政治越来越黑暗,越来越有不可告知的一面。
我也觉得马来西亚政治越来越不可靠。
很多人会有一种想法,那就是:要是你有本事就移民。
要是每个人都这么想,马来西亚就快不是马来西亚了。

刚刚读到无聊小站Nazrism,很清楚地可以看到马来西亚正面临的一切。
大家都认为是好的,一小部分的怪人却认为是坏的。
怪人!

Sunday, October 28, 2007

彩虹

周杰伦 - 彩虹

作曲:周杰伦
作词:周杰伦


哪里有彩虹告诉我
能不能把我的愿望还给我
为什么天这么安静
所有灯影都跑我这里

有没有口罩一个给我
释怀说了太多就成真不了
也许时间是一种解药
也是我现在正服下的毒药
看不见你的笑 我怎么睡得着
你的身影这么近我却抱不到
没有地球 太阳开始围绕
没有理由 我也能自己逃
你要离开 我知道很简单
你说依赖 是我们的阻碍
就算放开 但能不能别没收我的爱
当作我最后才明白

有没有口罩一个给我
释怀说了太多就成真不了
也许时间是一种解药
也是我现在正服下的毒药
看不见你的笑 我怎么睡得着
你的身影这么近我却抱不到
没有地球 太阳开始围绕
没有理由 我也能自己逃
你要离开 我知道很简单
你说依赖 是我们的阻碍
就算放开 但能不能别没收我的爱
当作我最后才明白

RAP:
看不见你的笑
要我怎么睡得着
你的身影这么近我却抱不到
没有地球太阳开始环绕环绕
没有理由我也能自己走掉
是我说了太多就成真不了
也许时间是一种解药解药
也是我现在正服下的毒药
你要离开 我知道很简单
你说依赖 是我们的阻碍
就算放开 但能不能别没收我的爱
当作我最后才明白



我很喜欢这首歌的歌词。歌曲也很舒服。
现在的天气阴阴的。好像要下雨又没有下雨。
微微的风吹进我的房间,感觉非常好。
看到有人打篮球,也有人打网球。
原来世界也可以这么平静。

jay's latest song!

jay's new song. anybody heard of it?
i downloaded it from somewhere...
(don't sue me because i downloaded his new song. i still got buy his ORIGINAL album)
and it was soooo nice. huhu...
i only got 3 new song.
and i already booked for his lastest album...
hope to get it very very soon.




Saturday, October 27, 2007

LAZY

too long didn't update.... nothing special happened i guess...
don't really have mood today... too bored? i also don't know.
i fall too deep into world of series... hahaha.... i am insane.
i finished watching grey's anatomy season 1,2,3 and now waiting for the season 4 episode 5.
also finished wathing prison break season 1,2 and now waiting for season 3 episode 6.
then watched criminal minds introduce by mymaple and going to finished watching too. i already download until season 3 episode 5.
what should i do/watch now?
i should be studying....
damn.... 'LAZY' virus coming back.

Wednesday, October 24, 2007

a story for you and me

i read a story from a blog. which is very very touching. i think most of us should read this. and remember about this story... it might be one part of your life someday. it really touched me. for boy or girl, man or women... read this.


''When I got home that night as my wife served dinner, I held her hand and said, I've got something to tell you. She sat down and ate quietly. Again I observed the hurt in her eyes.Suddenly I didn't know how to open my mouth. But I had to let her know what I was thinking. I want a divorce. I raised the topic calmly. She didn't seem to be annoyed by my words, instead she asked me softly,why? I avoided her question. This made her angry. She threw away the chopsticks and shouted at me, you are not a man! That night, we didn't talk to each other. She was weeping. I knew she wanted to find out what had happened to our marriage. But I could hardly give her a satisfactory answer; i had lost my heart to a lovely girl called Dew.

I didn't love her anymore. I just pitied her! With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which statedthat she could own our house, 30% shares of my company and the car.She glanced at it and then tore it into pieces. The woman who had spent ten years of her life with me had become a stranger. I felt sorry for her wasted time, resources and energy but I could not takeback what I had said for I loved Dew so dearly. Finally she cried loudly in front of me, which was what I had expected to see. To me her cry was actually a kind of release. The idea of divorce which had obsessed me for several weeks seemed to be firmer and clearer now.

The next day, I came back home very late and found her writingsomething at the table. I didn't have supper but went straight to sleep and fell asleep very fast because I was tired after an eventfulday with Dew. When I woke up, she was still there at the tablewriting. I just did not care so It urned over and was asleep again.

In the morning she presented her divorce conditions: she didn't want anything from me, but needed a month's notice before the divorce. She requested that in that one month we both struggle to live as normal alife as possible. Her reasons were simple: our son had his exams in a month's time and she didn't want to disrupt him with our broken marriage. This was agreeable to me.

But she had something more, she asked me to recall how I had carried her into out bridal room on our wedding day.She requested that everyday for the month's duration I carry her out of our bedroom to the front door ever morning. I thought she was going crazy. Just to make our last days together bearable I accepted her odd request. I told Dew about my wife s divorce conditions. She laughed loudly and thought it was absurd. No matter what tricks she applies,she has to face the divorce, she said scornfully.

My wife and I hadn't had any body contact since my divorce intention was explicitly expressed. So when I carried her out on the first day, we both appeared clumsy. Our son clapped behind us, daddy is holding mummy in his arms. His words brought me a sense of pain. From the bedroom to the sitting room, then to the door, I walked over ten meters with her in my arms. She closed her eyes and said softly, don't tell our son about the divorce. I nodded, feeling somewhat upset. I put her down outside the door. She went to wait for the bus to work. I drove alone to the office.


On the second day, both of us acted much more easily. She leaned on my chest.. I could smell the fragrance of her blouse. I realized that I hadn't looked at this woman carefully for a long time.I realized she was not young any more. There were fine wrinkles on her face, her hair was graying! Our marriage had taken its toll on her.For a minute I wondered what I had done to her. On the fourth day, when I lifted her up, I felt a sense of intimacy returning. This was the woman who had given ten years of her life to me.


On the fifth and sixth day, I realized that our sense of intimacy was growing again. I didn't tell Dew about this. It became easier to carry her as the month slipped by. Perhaps the everyday workout made me stronger. She was choosing what to wear one morning. She tried on quite a few dresses but could not find a suitable one. Then she sighed, all my dresses have grown bigger. I suddenly realized that she had grown so thin, that was the reason why I could carry her more easily.

Suddenly it hit me, .. she had buried so much pain and bitterness in her heart. Subconsciously I reached out and touched her head. Our son came in at the moment and said, Dad, it's time to carry mum out. To him, seeing his father carrying his mother out had become an essential part of hislife. My wife gestured to our son to come close rand hugged him tightly. I turned my face away because I was afraid I might change my mind at this last minute. I then held her in my arms, walkingf rom the bedroom, through the sitting room, to the hallway. Her hand surrounded my neck softly and naturally. I held her body tightly; it was just like our wedding day. But her much lighter weight made me sad.


On the last day, when I held her in my arms I could hardly move a step. Our son had gone to school.I held her tightly and said, I hadn't noticed that our life lacked intimacy. I drove to office... jumped out of the car swiftly without locking the door. I was afraid any delay would make me change my mind... I walked upstairs. Dew opened the door and I said to her,Sorry,Dew, I do not want the divorce anymore. She looked at me, astonished. Then touched my forehead. Do you have a fever? She said. I moved her hand off my head. Sorry, Dew, I said, I won't divorce. My marriage life was boring probably because she and I didn't value the details of our lives, not because we didn't love each other any more. Now I realized that since I carried her into my home on our wedding day I am supposed to hold her until death does us apart. Dew seemed to suddenly wake up. She gave me a loud slap and then slammed the door and burst into tears. I walked downstairs and droveaway. At the floral shop on the way, I ordered a bouquet of flowers for my wife. The salesgirl asked me what to write on the card. I smiled and wrote:I'll carry you out every morning until deaths does us apart.

The small details of our lives are what really matter in a relationship.It is not the mansion, the car, the property, the bank balance that matters. These create an environment conducive for happiness but cannot givehappiness in themselves. So find time to be your spouse's friend and do those little things foreach other that build intimacy.

Monday, October 22, 2007

mymaple tagged


(不 题), Tag (例 5 位)被 Tag Blog 关, Tag 5 (不 题)

枫叶的问题
1.
5 事, 因。
2.
5 事, 法。
3.
5 / 物, 法。(可 合。)


我的回答:
1. 5 事, 因。

  • 搞好人与人之间的原系。感觉上我的人缘并不是很好。
  • 放假时要到国外去旅行,更朋友或自己。我喜欢旅行,可是每次都和家人一起去,我想尝试自己去或和朋友去的感觉。
  • 赚大钱!越多钱越好!我越来越现实,没办法。有钱可以做我想做的事。
  • 定时运动,或去Gym。定时哦!很久没运动了,越来越懒惰。
  • 得到我的自由!

2. 5 事, 法。

  • mymaple tagged。因为要回复tagged,要不然他会诅咒我!tagged回他。
  • 被朋友背叛,而且我当她是很要好的朋友。绝交。
  • 不能上网。不能blog,不能chat。看戏。
  • 考试成绩不好。尽全力还是考不好,谁不气愤啊!发泄。
  • 还有一个算了。

3. 5 / 物, 法。(可 合。)

  • 感谢:所有认识我的人,所有我认识的人。没有你们,我就没有回忆。
  • 揍扁:mymaple!!! 竟敢tagged我!


我不想tagged任何人,很累的。


p/s:不好意思啦!这么迟才回复你的tagged。好像有四个月之久。呵呵呵!

Jeslyn tagged part 2

Nikki's type!

Rules.
1. Each blogger must repost these rules.
2. Each blogger have to rant 8 random facts/habits of themselves.
3. List 5 people to be tagged.
4. Drop by their blog and let them know that they've been "TAGGED"!.


· Like Jay Chou. Have all his collection.

· Like day dream.

· Crazying in movie.

· Like to blog…. Some friend call me Blog Queen

· Too naïve.

· Phycho in secondary school. Now nobody to phycho together…

· Like music very much. Any songs…Chinese, English, malay, even other language.

· Talk to myself…



DON’T WANT TAGGED ANYMORE. I KNOW THE FEELING WHEN GET TAGGED BY OTHER PEOPLE. T.T

Jeslyn tagged part 1

Dear Jes…why you tagged me~~~


Layer 1: On The Outside
Name: Melissa Ting Sok Lin
Birthdate: 7 September 1988
Current status: Single…
Eye Colour: Black/brown
Hair Colour: Black/brown (not enough nutrient for hair)


Layer 2: On The Inside
My Heritage: Malaysia
My Fear: no fear
My Weakness: lazy
My Perfect Pizza: paperoni chicken/beef


Layer 3: Yesterday,Today & Tomorrow
The First Thought Of Waking Up: What my dream means…
My Bed Time: It’s not fixed. Up to my mood.
My Most Missed Memories: My secondary school day and NS.


Layer 4: My Pick
Coke or Pepsi: Pepsi
Mcdonalds or Burger King: Mcdonalds (I’m lovin’ it).
Single or Group Dates: Depends. Sometimes single sometimes group dates.
Adidas or Nike: Nike
Tea or Nestea: Tea
Chocolate or Vanilla: Vanilla and chocolate
Capuccino or Coffee: Capuccino and coffee (hahahaaaa…)


Layer 5: DO YOU..
Smoke: NOPE!!!
Take A Shower: Of course.
Have A Crush: Long time ago….
Go To School: Go to college.
Believe In Yourself: OF COURSE!
Think You're A Health Freak: Absolutely not.


Layer 6: In The Past
Drink Alcohol: Rarely.
Gone To The Mall: ........
Dyed Your Hair: Nono


Layer 7: Are You Hoping To..
Get Married: Not really. I hoping not to get married. (hohoho)
Have Children: Sure… If I married.


Layer 8: In A Guy
Best Eye Colour: Blue
Best Hair Colour: Depends. (ang mo sure ang mo colour la)
Short or Long Hair: Long… Until shoulder it’s enough.


Layer 9: What Were You Doing Just Now?
A Minute Ago: Doing the tag tagged by my dear Jeslyn
An Hour Ago: Having dinner
Month Ago: Sinking in my own hole
Year ago: crayzing around


LaYer 10
I love: everything
I hate: alone
I hide: my feelings…


Layer 11 : Tag 5 people
Myanothermapleleaf
Petaibabe
Carmen
Cindy

carmen tagged

This is Carmen tagged.

John's types:
Rules:
1. The tag victim has to come up with 8 different points about his/her perfect lover.
2. Have to mention the gender of his/her perfect lover.
3. Tag eight other victims to join this game and leave a comment on their blog.
4. If you are tagged the second time, there is NO need to do this again.
5. Lastly, and most importantly, HAVE FUN DOING IT. (-____-)


1. I didn’t think of this question before lea… no perfect people in this world already la.

· He shouldn’t be a smoker. (But if I fall in love with someone who smoked, he better don’t smoke in front of me.)

· He must be rich!!! (kakaka… I become more and more reality now. My environment made me so.)

· I don’t really mind the appearance. ( but clean and tidy okey!)

· Can understand me even I didn’t say it out. ( as my best friend know lo I don’t like to say out things.)

· Motivated and hardworking.

· Tolerate my weirdness.

· Taller then me.

· Older then me. (there are still exception. Huhuhu…)

2. Gender? Of course is boy…. Or more accurate is man. MAN!

3. Eight victims? I don’t have so many people to tagged…..

· Jeslyn

· Myanothermypleleaf

· Petaibabe

· Cindy

It is hard to set a target about perfect lover. When you meet someone, the feeling just come and you won’t think so much about other things. This is base on my own experience…

tagged

after the holidays i found out i've been tagged by so many people....
i can't online in the holiday when i was at home because laptop can't connect to the internet trought cable...what the hell...
i have to do all the tag after holiday...
okok... i saw your guy's blogs and i saw the tagged. i will reply it as soon as possible...

p/s: myanothermapleleaf,still remember your tagged? hehehe... i still not yet reply ya.... hahaha... sorry.

Saturday, October 13, 2007

怪梦

终于回到家了。回家还是幸福的。

刚才睡午觉时作了怪梦。很多人出现在我梦里。都是认识的,而我记得是越南的那群朋友,还有aaron。 梦很复杂,我也不知道要从哪里开始说起。

梦里我们都是成年人了。梦是怎样开始的我不知道。记得的是发生了很多不愉快的事,就好像遇贼之类的。有一幕我记得很清楚。我把车子放在路边,就当我要上车时我看到aaron在巴士站。忘了他是要做什么。我过去和他谈了满久的,好像很愉快。分手后,我就到路边那车。那时一群非法劳工在路上跑,还有一个人要上我的车,吓得我不知所措。还好这时又一辆巡逻车经过,帮我把那个人捉走。当他被捉时看到他苦苦哀求,我就心软了,可是我告诉我自己现在并不是心软的时候。

当我一转身我又看到一个非法劳工在刮我的车。我不知道他为什么要这么做。我想尽办法阻止他就是没用,而且它不是本地人我们沟通自然出现问题。我真的不知道要怎样和他沟通。那劳工身上有名片,他的名字好想越南人的名字。我突然用越南话问候他,他好想遇到故乡认似的,可是我只会那句越南话,我很努力想可是一个字也想不到。这是,jindo,vu他们做过来。他们看到我和我打招呼,我向他们求助,要他们跟那劳工沟通。

另一个部分是很恐怖的,就连我都觉得很恐怖。出现了一种怪物会夺走一样东西,我忘了是什么。全部人都很怕这个怪物,我们也想尽办法阻止事情的发生,可是还是人多人遭殃。我就好像戏里面的女主角。当事情发生在我身上时,也就是那怪物找我成为他另一个受害者时,我竟然跑到Vu的家。梦里的Vu已经成家了,还有孩子。他老婆并不欢迎我,就好像我是他情敌似的,事事都为难我。而且他的老婆管他管得很严,就像他离开不了他老婆。

梦很真实,就连我都忘了我是在做梦。梦里好像发生很久,可是我才睡不过一个小时多。梦石还没有完的,可是睡梦中的我感觉应该赶快结束这场梦,我马上张开眼睛,房里一片黑暗。醒来我只有一个感觉,那就是我做了一个非常奇怪的梦。

我想我回自己解梦。我会梦到Vu是因为中午时我才和他sms。他约我去吃午餐,可惜我已经回到马六甲了。昨天又跟他在网上聊天。他说可能要来马六甲玩,到时我就要带他到处走走。他说十一月会有放假,他会回去越南三个月。过后不知道还会不会回来马来西亚,他可能会去别的国家。真得很舍不得啊!他真的又要离开吗?我知道他是留不住的,他始终会离开这里,因为这里并不是他的家。最然我们见面少了,聊天也少了,当初刚开始认识的那段日子我却记得很清楚。有时想要是我们关系一直像以前那样该有多好。

我会梦到那么多有关越南可能是我太想要去那里了吧!最近看了很多有关越南的地方、消息,还认识了这么多越南朋友,所以设么都离不开越南似的,而且lam现在在越南。

而aaron,因该是最近每天都在网上聊天,而且我们都聊得很愉快的。那天我不开心也是因为他安慰我才觉得比较舒服。我不是想不开,他说的讲得我都懂,只是当时的我真的需要一个人安慰,他比我还能说服我自己的心。我每次自己安慰自己,自己开导自己,自己说服自己,全都自己承受,自己吞下。有时候我也需要别人的关心,别人的开导,别人的安慰。

回忆还是最美好的。也许我什么都没有,可是我又回忆。我想并没有人会像我这样,每段回忆都会记得清清楚楚的。我好喜欢我的回忆。我怀念它、想念它。要是可以回到过去,我想回到过去。

10/10/07
23:34

Tuesday, October 9, 2007

fine fine day

i am tired...i am lazy...and i relaxing for the whole day.
mei and amanda came back from langkawi today.
everything was just fine. nothing happened. and my mood is just good...
wake up at 10am eventhough i didn't have class today.
i should be studying right now for my test tomorrow but i am not doing it instead of blogging here.
went to alamanda with phang and a wai.
went there to had a meal and phang want to buy a cap.
he brought a white cap and for me... didn't plan to buy anything at all but at last i brought a red sweater.
yeah~ reddish sweater and i like it very much...the colour are just nice!
a wai went to carefour to buy something which i don't know what.
we saw few hamsters and rabbits for sale right in front of the counter.
the hamsters was so active and they are running and running around the cage.
we stood there so long and keep watching the hamsters and laughing.
phang and i went to had basket robbins ice cream...
i take mints chocolate chips and chocolate chips.
not cheap actually...two scoops for rm9 and not yet plus the tax.
but it was delicious.
everything goes fine...smooth...
and i think my boring live is changing soon...i have that feelings....
my holiday coming which is after tomorrow...
what should i do in my holiday? better start thinking....

Sunday, October 7, 2007

改变

外面下着雨,刚刚喝了一杯热热的白咖啡,感觉非常好。
看完了一部有一部的戏,感觉还是一样。闷闷的,怪怪的。
整个人残废似的,可以什么都不做,在漫漫的浪费我的时间、浪费我的生命。
我的生活什么时候开始变成这样?变成废人、变得无聊,变得什么都不重要。
想了很多事,可是全都没有结果的。
现在的我完全没有动力。
真得很不想过这样的生活。
我知道我需要做出改变。
我要活象以前的那个我。
像一个闪耀的星星,在夜晚的星空闪发出最明亮的星星。

Saturday, October 6, 2007

save me

so damn bored and don't know what should i do.
watched as much movie and series as i could but it's still feel bored.
walking around like dead people with no soul.
nobody to talk or chat nobody to share.
i'm all alone today do nothing other then did one assignment.
feeling so empty and nothing.
can't describe what am i feeling now.
i need a hero that can save me from sinking deep into the hole....

Friday, October 5, 2007

站在半路比走到目的地更辛苦!

世界并没有为了我而停下。


今天很闷很闷很闷。早上十点就上完课了,跟敏和杨一起去吃午餐。过后回到宿舍也不是到应该做什么好。这个星期我没有回家,因为星期三就放假了,没有必要来回吧!真得很闷,不知道做什么好。该看的戏也看了,看得那么多部戏,好像越来越闷。看到四点然后就睡午觉,忘了调闹钟而睡到自然醒,醒来时快八点了。因为中午开着玻璃门没有关,蚊子乱钉。第一天已经这么难过了,无知道我怎样过未来的两天。现在第一、二和三年的学生开始放假,大多数的人今天回去了。也就说我那一班朋友今天回家的回家了,要去旅行的也准备了。敏和珍明天要飞去langkawi。我没去应该下个星期一和二有上课,而且是我不能翘的课。虽然很想和她们一起去,可是还是没去。为什么不能等下次一起去啊!


Lam也回越南了,回去三个星期。他叫我下次放假和他一起去越南。我也有这样的打算,呵呵呵!我妈妈今年年尾可能会去越南或台湾。她应该是要带我去的,因为她问我放假的日期,可是年尾我好像没有放假。天啊!为什么今年我过得这么不顺利?明年一月多我会开始放假到八月。都不知道要怎么度过。现在就开始想了,可是想那么多又有什么用啊?倒是有不如我想象那样,不是更失望吗?很想去越南哦!我想要放假,去旅行、去走走。不知道我妈妈给不给,而且三个星期勒!lam说到时要走越南很多地方,然后和这里的越南朋友在越南中部相见。听起来好像会很好很好玩。不管怎样都要说服我妈妈!!


这个星期也不是过得很好,也有不愉快的事发生。真的不知道我应该用怎样的心态来过日子。我需要刺激的事情发生!我需要一些不一样的事发生!我需要很不同,跟现在完全不同的事发生!要怎样在会发生?也许我的生活和去年现在一样时间所发生的有太大的差别了吧!和前年的今天也有很大的差别。和过去的每一年的今天都不一样。我需要可以激励我、可以让我的生活有目标的事发生。好像很不简单。我看过一篇文章,说着:如果有个人希望可以更有耐心,你认为上帝会直接给予他耐心呢?还是给他一个培养耐心的机会?如果有个人希望自己更勇敢,你认为上帝是赐给他勇敢?还是给他锻炼胆量的机会?如果又有人希望跟家人关系更密切,你想上帝是扔点貌似温存的感觉给他呢?还是赐给他一个跟家人共度难关的机会?我要怎样制造出有意义、有目标的人生?


站在半路比走到目的地更辛苦!

Tuesday, October 2, 2007

你喜欢的会有几

我的眼睛叫做迷惑
我的心情叫做失落
我的愿望叫做解脱
我的眼泪叫做诉说
按奈不住叫做脆弱
呐喊很久叫做沉默
承受不了叫做寂寞
我的现在不知所措



周华建[你喜欢的会有几个]

Monday, October 1, 2007

内疚

我好差劲,怎么转头就可以把一件事忘得一干二净。
非常对不起我妈妈。很内疚......
今早到了赛城因为迟到了便马上赶去上课而忘了通知我妈妈我到达了。
就一整天这样地过,到晚上我爸爸打电话给我说妈妈担心了一整天,还以为发生了什么事。
虽说她是想太多,可是他也是因为关心我。
我怎么那么大意,这是不应该犯的错。
我妈妈还打给我朋友的电话,因为她打不通我的手提电话。我也没接到她的电话,也没有为接电话的显示。
很明显可以看得出我妈妈有多紧张了。
对不起...非常对不起。
我非常得不孝,一点都不孝顺。
孝,就是把自己照顾得好好的,不让父母担心。
这么简单都办不到,一点都不孝顺!
我不会再这样了!我不会再让我妈妈担心。
每一次第一件事要做的是报平安!报平安!!