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Monday, May 17, 2010

aimless

feel so aimless now... i don't know why i do feel like doing anything at all.
feel like running away from everything...
how good if here is also same like western country where we can stop studying like a few years then come back continue study when we are mentally prepared... and nobody will give a damn about it.

maybe it's too stressful. or maybe there are too much things to be studied.
and i don't like study at all... no motivation for today...
i don't know what will happened if i don't have motivation everyday before the pro exam...

i know my aim suppose to be pass my pro exam...
but seem like not my aim at all...
i wonder why i don't same like other people...
at least they feel scared not passing the exam and they will force themselves to study...

sometimes i just wish i have a little bit of 'kia-su'ness
then i will not wanting to lose to other people and fight to get better result than them... but i'm just not.
i tried to be hardworking... but still as lazy as usual.





life is like a paper for us to colour on it...
but how should i colour it when i don't even know what colour to use?
sigh......

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