life is too short to be waste

i just see our photo last week, sorting out which photo i should develop since i have bought the voucher to develop 500 photos. i was very happy and fortunate that we took the photo together. it was such an happy event! all of us smile so happily.

i get to know about the bad news on sunday morning, told by my mom. i started to prepare myself for the worst news. today after class, i saw my cousin status saying he has passed away. It was 11am. so i confirm with my cousin after that.

i phone my babysitter to check on her. she sound fine and ask me to go for the funeral if i can. i say some words to comfort her and at the same time, i am trying very hard to prevent myself for crying. she understand me and stop me from saying more, she just ask me to go for the funeral if i am able to.

its such a pain to let go someone that we know and we will never know if we will ever meet again.
maybe its a release for him, release from all the suffer in this world. i never know that the photo we took that day will be the last one.

i will not have regret as i treat him just like my father,  i didn't speak any harsh word to him and i respect him, i'll talk and visit him when i have time. the only thing i regret is that i should pay them a visit during my last holiday. i wanted to but i didn't.

i remember during my primary school time, he will always bring food for me after school, by bicycle, as we have tuition after that. he never complaint.

may him rest in peace.
we shall always remember the good of him and the happy moment we had.