F 先生。 Mr. F

9月23日，凌晨12点33分


我收到F简讯。
i receive a message from F.



他说：
你知不知到蜜蜂的希腊名称是什么？
我正在做有关传统医学的资料。
可能你可以帮到我的忙。
有什么意见吗？
he says:
hey, do you know what is the greek word for honey-bee?
i'm kinda doing some research for alternative medicine.
thought i cound use sum of your help a bit.
any idea?


我回复：
我不太清楚勒！
可是我知道有人用蜜蜂以毒攻毒来治疗一些病痛。
i reply:
i am not very sure about it.
but i know that there are some people that use the poison of honey bee to cure poison.




他回复：
哦，真的吗？以毒攻毒...还真有趣。
我可以放进我的表演稿里。
我有听说过蜜糖在某个化学作用可以让人感到美好。
虽然很荒谬，可是那是真的哦！
你有没有听说过？
he reply:
oh, really?
antidote for poison... that interesting...
i can put that in slide.
have u heard ppl claim that honey can makes u feel good due to a chemical...
it sounds ridiculous.. bt could be true. ever heard of it b4?


我回复：
你当我是你的网上搜寻吗？
好像我一定会懂似的。哈哈！
真的吗？我不太清楚哦！
我也听说过要是烫伤时马上涂上蜜糖可以减轻烫伤的疼痛，也可以预防留下疤痕。
i reply:
you think that i am your internet? hahaha...
i never heard that before.
but i also heard before that if you get burn one might help to cure the pain and won't leave scare on your skin




他回复：
这就是我形容你的方式，我的朋友。
你在我们的友情上不曾留下疤痕。
你是个值得收藏无价的朋友。
蜜蜂在希腊是叫“Melissa”。
he reply:
hat's how i can describe abt you my friend.
you leave no scar in a friendship.
Ure an invaluable friend to keep for.
honey bee in greek means 'Melissa':)


我回复：
对！哈哈哈！
我怎么忘了呢！是我的名字没错。
你替醒了我。哈哈哈！
我曾经在网上查过，在foundation的时候。
可是我竟然忘记了。哈哈！
你真的在做research吗？
i reply:
ya! hahaha... how can i forget it.
it is my name. you remind me. hahaha
i search in the internet before in foundation but i forgotten it. hahaha
are you really doing research?

他回复：
哈哈！那你早就知道了。
非常棒！
不是每个人都知道别人称呼他什么。
我想你是例外吧！
恭喜你！
我真的在做research吗？

Hmm...你觉得呢?
he reply:
haha... so u've known it already.
thats great...
not evrybody does really know what ppl actually call them.
you're excluded i guess. congratulations.
hehe did i really doing research?
hm, what do you think?


我回复：
你不是在考试吗？
我还以为你们这个星期有年中学期考试。
i reply: i thought you are having mid sem exam this week...




他回复：
是的！这正个星期是中学期考试啊！
非常重要的！
我需要继续复习了！下次再聊！
嘻嘻嘻！
he reply:
yes its mid sem week 4 d whole pharmacy big time.
hey. i need to get to my revision. ttyl ya.
hehehe..


我回复：
非常厉害！休息一阵子充充电再继续复习。
祝你好运！享受你的复习。呵呵！
保重！
i reply:
very clever of you. get enough rest then start your engine again.
good luck for your exam. enjoy your study. haha
get enough rest.




他回复：
你也是！嘻嘻嘻！
he reply:
you too... hehehe...






要是这个世界只有那么一个种类人那该有多好啊！
how good if this world only have one kind of human!

稻香

稻香

词：周杰伦 曲：周杰伦

对这个世界如果你有太多的抱怨
跌倒了就不敢继续往前走
为什麼人要这麼的脆弱 堕落
请你打开电视看看
多少人为生命在努力勇敢的走下去
我们是不是该知足
珍惜一切 就算没有拥有


还记得你说家是唯一的城堡 随著稻香河流继续奔跑
微微笑 小时候的梦我知道
不要哭让萤火虫带著你逃跑 乡间的歌谣永远的依靠
回家吧 回到最初的美好


不要这麼容易就想放弃 就像我说的
追不到的梦想 换个梦不就得了
为自己的人生鲜艳上色 先把爱涂上喜欢的颜色
笑一个吧 功成名就不是目的
让自己快乐快乐这才叫做意义
童年的纸飞机 现在终於飞回我手里
所谓的那快乐 赤脚在田里追蜻蜓追到累了
偷摘水果被蜜蜂给叮到怕了 谁在偷笑呢
我靠著稻草人吹著风唱著歌睡著了
哦 哦 午后吉它在虫鸣中更清脆
哦 哦 阳光洒在路上就不怕心碎
珍惜一切 就算没有拥有


还记得你说家是唯一的城堡 随著稻香河流继续奔跑
微微笑 小时候的梦我知道
不要哭让萤火虫带著你逃跑 乡间的歌谣永远的依靠
回家吧 回到最初的美好





听到了周杰伦的新歌
很感动
没想到当我最需要推动力时
这一首歌给了我很大很大的鼓励

这首歌主要的是要告诉大家一个很简单
也很容易被遗忘的道理
那就是知足
我们每天打开电视看到很多人都在为生命
努力勇敢地走下去
我们是不是更应该知足
更珍惜眼前的一切

生日惊喜 。surprising birthday

虽然我的生日过了有点久了，可是我还没写我朋友给我的生日惊喜。
我从来都没想过我的朋友会给我一个生日惊喜。
但是我也渴望这个惊喜好久了。
每次在为别的朋友制造惊喜时，也希望自己的朋友也可以给我一个惊喜。
even though my birthday had passed quite long, but i still haven't write about the surprise
that my friends gave me.
i never thought that my friends would give me a birthday surprise.
but i also hope for it for very long time.
everytime preparing for other friend's surprise birthday, i also hope that one day my friend
s will be able to give me one.


我生日当天傍晚就回到赛城，毕竟第二天有上课。
回去后我就到敏的家去找Vu帮我修理我的手提电脑。
在那里也呆了蛮久的。
他们想要出去吃晚餐，当然邀我一起去。
我吃饱了不想去。
i went back to Cyberjaya that evening of my birthday, because i have class the next day.
after i reach there i went to Mei's house to find Vu help me to reformat my laptop.
i was there for quite some times.
then they wanted to go out for dinner, they also invited me.
i had my dinner so i don't want to go.


扬说：一起去吃吧！
我说：我吃饱了。
扬说：去喝喝茶也好。
Ryan:go with us la!
me:i am full.
Ryan:go have some drinks la.


就这样我跟Vu、扬和美珍一起去吃晚餐。
敏还在她的家，还没回来。
then, i followed vu.ryan and amanda to dinner.
Mei still at her house, not yet come back to Cyberjaya.


晚餐后我就回我的家。
一直到十一点多时，Vu打电话给我叫我出来拿我的hard disc。
after dinner i went back to my house.
until 11 something, Vu phoned me ans ask me go out my house to take my hard disc.


Vu:come out and take your hard disc.
me:you don't know where's my house?
Vu:ya...come out and take it.
me:you knew my house la... you came here before...same as last time that house.
Vu:you come out la.....


就这样我就走出去我的家，看到Vu，我便走过去。
突然，柱子后面冒出生日歌。
原来是敏、珍还有扬在那里。
敏手上还拿着一个点着蜡烛的蛋糕。
哈哈哈！
我当时不知道怎样反应，一直笑而已。
我真正的感受到惊喜的感觉。呵呵！
so i walk out my house, was Vu then i walk towards him.
suddenly, there were 'Happy Birthday' song came out from behind of the
it's Mei, Amanda and Ryan.
Mei was holding a cake with candles on her hands.
hahaha !
i don't know how should i react that time, just keep on laughing.
i really had the feeling of 'surprise'.haha!



my cake


当时的时间是11点59分了。
我说我的生日都要过了才庆祝。
他们说这样才特别，我才会记得那一次的生日。
那一群越难朋友也来了，虽然他们有点慢。
（因为他们特别洗个澡，打扮好好才来的）
that time was about 11.59pm.
my birthday going to over only they want to celebrate with me, i says.
they say, this is more special then usual, then only i will remember that day.
my Vietnam friend's also came, although they were quite slow.
(they even took a shower and look neat)



i like my hair!! hahaha


我非常非常感激这一群朋友。
i really appreciate this group of my friends.



little present from Mya.

想念我的小孩 。miss my kids

我终于完成了我一直想要做的事。
at last, i had done what i wished.


今天我回到Malim那里的幼儿园，见了那些我想念已久的小孩。 依然是那几个很熟悉的脸孔。 我预算好时间，刚刚好在他们睡午觉后去找他们。
today i went to Malim's kindergarten, and meet all the kids that i miss so much. their faces are still so familier. i planned my time, and i reach there right after their nap.


我的一个看到的是Mah Wei Jun。 他应该是刚刚睡醒，还迷迷糊糊的。 他看到我时好像有点惊讶。 我问他：你知不知到我是谁？ 他只看着我，没有回答我的问题。 但是我心里想着：这些小孩都忘了我吗？
the first child i saw was Mah Wei Jun. i think he just woke up, look so blur. he looks surprise when he saw me came. i asked him: do you know who am I? he just stare at me. didn't answer my question. in heart i thought: are all these kids already forgotten me?


Mah Wei Jun


Joslyn Teh,Yee Shin, Noelle都在做功课。 他们像是记得我，可是却忘了我。 看得出，Joslyn很用力的想我是谁。
Joslyn Teh, Yee Shin Noelle was doing their homework. they seem like remember me, but at the same time forgotten me. i can saw that Joslyn is trying very hard to remember who am I.

Ye Shin


和那里的院长还有舒玲aunty聊聊天，我也买了一些小吃给她们。 aunty过后就进去房里把剩余那些还没睡醒的小孩起身。
talk a while with the Headmaster and also Aunty ShuLin, and i bought some snack for them. anuty then went into the room to wake up the kids that not yet wake up from their nap.


Yao and Joslyn


突然，Mah Wei Jun就走到房门外说：Teacher Melissa！ 他记得我！我心里呐喊着。 当时很感动，因为有一个学生竟然还记得我的名字。 那时其它的学生也跑过来教我。
then suddenly, Mah Wei Jun came to the door and called: Teacher Melissa! he still remember me! i shout inside my heart. i am so touched, because at least there are still a student remember me. then other kids also came and call me.


Kwei Xuan看到我是就耍脾气，她还是像以前那样的霸道。 Henry公主却因为不够睡而脸嘟嘟。 阿耀还是那么会说话。 子强依然那么会吃。
Kwei Xuan was having bad mood, still as ego as before. Henry having bad mood because he was waked up from his nap. Yao still talk as much as last time. Qiang was still eat as much as last time.


Henry


Kwei Xuan刚开始时根本就不想接近我。 经过一段时间的哄哄骗骗她才肯让我抱她。 她也记得我。 当我问她：你知道我是谁吗？ 她会说：Teacher Melissa。
Kwei Xuan refuse to come near me at first. after a while only she let me carry her. she still remember me. i asked her: do you know who am I? she called: Teacher Melissa.


Kwei Xuan

舒玲aunty说，小孩子要是久了没见面就会感到生疏的。
aunty ShuLin says, the children will feel you are stranger if we lost contact for quite some time.


虽然生疏了点，这一群小孩还记得我。 还会叫我，还会跟我说很多很多的话。
even thought there was already a gap, but these kids still remember me. they still call me, and also talk a lot with me.


那里换了院长，换了老师，换了教育方式。 以前是没有藤鞭的，可是今天我发现到院长的桌子上有藤鞭。 那个aunty也一直恐吓他们，尤其是Mah Wei Jun。 也许他们现在的环境并没有我想向中的那么差。 尽管如此我也无能为力。 真的希望那些小孩过得顺顺利利的。
changes of headmaster, changes of teachers, changes of education style. there was no cane in the past, but today i was a cane on the headmaster's table. aunty also keep on scaring them, especially towards mah Wei Jun. maybe their situation is not as bad as i thought. if really were, I can't do anything too. just hope that the kids there will live happily.


Kwei Xuan给我哄后就让我抱，做功课时也坐着我的腿上。 当时的感觉很好很好。 我在那里逗留的时间也满长的。 只需要看着那些小孩，我就很满足。
Kwei Xuan let me carry her, and she sits on my lap when she doing her homework. that feeling was really great. i was there for quite a long time. i feel satisfied just looking at the kids.


直到我要离开前，我告诉Kwei Xuan：我现在要回家了，改天才来看你，好不好？ 她点点头，然后说：Teacher Melissa，你明天来看我啊？ 我听到她那样回答我，我的情绪就快要控制不住了。 我再不离开那个地方，也许我会忍不住掉眼泪 我回答她：嗯...
until before i leave, i tell Kwei Xuan: i want to go back now, i come to see you another day , ok? she noded her head, then she says: Teacher Melissa, you tomorrow will come and see me again? when i heard what she says, i nearly can't hold my emotion, if I don't leave that place immedialy, i might not be able to hold my tears. i answered her: emm...



他们就是那么的天真。
他们就是那么的单纯。
they are so naive.
they are so pure.




我已经开始想念他们了......
i already start to miss them......





19/08/09

my kids

watched 'The Mist' just now... which was a damn stupid movie.
the story was quite good but the ending is so brainless.
the stupidest movie that i've seen.
even the horror movie 'sick nurses' was better then that even thought the supernatural thing was so fake.


i didn't go back to malacca this week... basically no reason at all.
just whenever i feel going back or the other way round i can do whatever i want.


last Friday i had final exam for my Anatomy paper.
i don't think i did well.
the result is not out yet... might be out a month later.


now i am entering 'behavioural sciences' block, something like psychology.
basically we studying about human behave and their minds.
from infant until old age.
it was not as interesting as what i thought.
i thought that maybe we will be studying about some cases of mental problems.
but what we study is the theory and some definitions.
most of it don't have a fix answer and this make my assignment lots of trouble.
and i also don't know what i should study.
the lecturer also didn't give any notes to us.


one of the topic was 'psychology development during childhood, adolescence and adulthood'.
the childhood part makes me think about my kindergarten kids.
i just miss them so damn much.
until i can't describe how much i miss them.
all of the kids faces appear one by one in my mind.
what's in the notes about their behavior was totally same as what i experience when i working in kindergarten.
that only make me miss them more.
i tell myself that i will go and visit them some day when i having holidays.
but i am so scare that i will be disappointed.


i just miss them so much.

祝我生日快乐！happy birthday to me!

谢谢这些祝福我的朋友。
Thank you very much for all the friends that wished me.









第一个当然是Jeslyn，她是第一个找我的人，然后约我出去看电影。送她回家之前意外惊喜还送我礼物！还写‘情信’给我。
The very first one surely will be Jesln, she is the first one to find me and asked me out for movies. Then surprisingly give a present. Even wrote a ‘love letter’ for me.


然后是aaron。死鬼王八蛋骗我说他很累要睡觉了。可是午夜12点后突然sms我祝福我。
Then it’s aaron. This stupid guy bluffs me he was sooo tired and wanted to sleep. But then sms me on 12 midnight wish me.


就想不到的是辉，一个网上朋友。很久都没有和他聊天了，他还会记得我的生日。
The unexpected hui, a online friend. I didn’t chat with him for a very long time, but he still remembers my birthday.


Zenkio，一个香港朋友，也是在网上聊天祝福我。
Zenkio a Hong Kong online friend also wished me.


Py也sms我，写了很特别的词汇祝福我。一看就知道是她，总喜欢写那些形容词。
Py sms me, used a special words to wish me. I knew it was her when I read that message. She likes to use all those words.


可欣，很好很久的朋友。还说下次放假时要找我去逛街。
“喂！我上一年生日的礼物你买了却一直忘义给我！什么意思嘛！”哈哈哈！！
Ko Shin, a very goo old friend. She says she will ask me for shopping when she having holidays.
“hey! My last year present that you’ve bought when only wants to give me?” haha…


Cindy叫我不要那么压力。只要做好自己的本分就要。相比她是从我的部落格看到我那么压力吧！我会很好的！
Cindy asked me not to give too much pressure for myself, just did my best. I think she read my blog and found that I am so stress up.


凯萱也不曾忘记我的生日。认识她很久，可是小学开始都没有见过面了。真得很感动。
Xuan, which never fail to forget my birthday. I knew her quite long, but we never meet after primary school. It’s so touched.


就连再旸都会祝福我。可能我们去越南后比较好吧！我以前觉得他很鸟，去越南后反而觉得还好了。哈哈！
Even zaiyang wished me. Maybe after we went Vietnam together we were closer. Last time I use to feel that he is very cold, after Vietnam trip I will he become better. Haha…


Vu和Jindo在半夜sms祝福我。当时我睡着了，今早才看到的。
Vu and Jindo sms me middle of the night. I was asleep that time, and I saw It this morning.


Vicky也不忘祝福我。希望她可以早日解决她的问题。
Vicky wished me. Hopefully she can overcome her problem.


秀贞竟然说要我快点找到我另一半，她才会放心。好像我不会照顾自己似的。
Chin asked me to faster find my life partner, so that she will feel better. As if I can’t take care myself… haha


而在我学院的朋友mady和amal，刚刚认识的朋友也祝福我。
My college, mady and amal wished me, which I knew them not long before.


我差一点忘了一个打电话给我祝福我的朋友，Alex。我们算认识很久了，却没想到他会打电话给我，还以为sms就好了啊！他打来说了很多的废话。哈哈哈！算了。反正是我的‘特别的日子’，爽一下不会死的。
他问今天特别吗？说了很多废话我才说‘对我当然是特别了！’。
他说：听到我的笑声就可以了啦！表示我没问题。（考试前一天我找他聊聊因为太压力了）

I nearly forget a friend who phoned me and wished me, Alex. We knew each other for the a very long time, didn’t thought that he will phone me, maybe sms that’s all. He phone and we talk nonsense. Haha… it’s my birthday, so it’s my special day. Let me happy a while will not make any differences.
He asked it today a special day? After a lot of nonsense I answered ‘it’s surely a special day for me’.
He says: I heard you laugh then I know you are fine. (I find him a day before I exam, cause I was so stress)


还有我妹妹，还会问我要什么可以买给我。
And me sis, she even asked me what I want then she will buy for me.


前一晚和家人去吃晚餐，今早我干妈带我去吃点心。就上次那么一次我买蛋糕给她，她就那么的报答我。还硬硬塞我一百块和朋友庆祝。我妈妈都没这么做啊！呵呵！
The night before me and my family went out for dinner, then this morning my godmother bring me for dim sum. Last time her birthday I just did a very small thing, I wished her and bought a cake for her and this she replied me with so much things. She even gave me RM100 for me to spend and celebrate with my friends. Even my mom didn’t do such things. Haha..


截稿为止就这些人祝福我。应该没漏掉谁吧！
迟些祝福的朋友迟些再写。
反正我也不会计较这一切。
祝福我的朋友当然非常感动，非常感激。
那些忘了的，也不要紧。
因为以上很多很多朋友的生日我也忘记掉。
过了很久很久才会想起来。
所以我明白那些人的苦衷。

Until now these are all the people that wished me. I guess I didn’t missed anyone.
People that wish me later will post up here later.
I never mind all these things.
Of course my friends that wished me I feel so touched and thankful.
But those which forgot, never feel sorry.
Because most of the friend that wished me, I tend to forget their birthday too.
Until it passed for a very long time only I recall back.
So I understand their reason.


今年没有蛋糕，反而是我自己做给自己。很好笑吧！那蛋糕就和上次的一样！
This year no cake for me, I made one for myself. That’s funny! It was the cake I bake last time.




对自己的祝福：
你要好好学会处理压力，不要心理那么的不平衡。
不要一直拿自己和别人比较，怎么比都比不完的。
世界是不公平的，可是你自己可以让一切变得公平点的。
要常常记得，自己很幸运。
来到这个世界上，并不是每个人都可以有的机会。
不要对自己要求那么高。
全力以赴做好一切就行。
最重要的是要开开心心。
除了在这么重要的这一天开心，每一天都要开开心心的。

To myself:
You have to learn how to manage your stress, don’t be so unbalance.
Don’t keep on compare yourself with other people, never finishing compare each other.
This world is not fair, but you may make it a little fair.
Always remember that you are a lucky person.
Not everyone has the chance to come to this world.
Don’t ask so much from yourself.
Just tried your best and that’s the best.
The most important is be happy.
Not only on this special day but everyday!

考试前全力以赴，考试后接受结果。 Try your best before exam, and accept any of it’s result.

上个星期我回家，我妈妈说要买床单和被单给我。
她说我室友的床单那么美，而我得那么的普通。
其实对我来说并没有什么分别，反而旧的还比较舒服。
最后还是买了因为有大减价，而且可以换取兑现卷。

Last week I came back home, then my mom says she want to buy a comforter for me.
She says my roommate decorates her bed so nice, and mind was just normal.
Actually I don’t mind all these, the old one is much more comfortable.
At last she still bought it as it was a presale, and she get to change voucher.

my roommate bedsheet

my new bedsheet

回去宿舍的路上天空是灰灰的。
我的心也是灰灰的。

The sky was grey as I on the way back to hostel.
My heart was grey too..

i get my access card at last

现在的我好像越来越需要依靠了。
怎么也独立不起来。
其实有点担心的。
这才开学的第一个月勒！
我还有4年要熬的。
怎么快就服输，这不像我。
就连aaron都会这么说我了。

Seem like now I relay too much.
I can’t be independent.
It was quite worrying…
It was just the first month of my studies.
I have 4 more years to go.
If I gave up now, this was so not me.
Even aaron says me like this.



上个星期都很压力，因为考final。
可以说每个星期我都会有考试，然后每个月会有总考。
而上个星期我有23课要在两天内读完。
根本就读不完，而且我还是在前一个星期就读了的。
我的记忆力好像越来越差，越难记的一些很普通的东西。
我可以重复读了很多次还可以忘记那种。
有时真得很讨厌。
考试前几天都找几个好朋友聊聊天。
尤其是aaron真的很不好意思一直打扰他！哈哈！
要不然我才不会熬过那几天的。

Last week I was so stressed up because I having my final.
Every week I have assessment and every month a final exam.
Last week I had 23 topics to cover in 2 days.
It was impossible for me to finish it, I even started week before this.
My memories become worst, it’s so hard for me to memorized a little thing.
I repeat many times and I still can forget it.
Some times it was so irritating.
Few days before exam, I find some of my friends and have some chat.
Especially aaron, very sorry for the disturbing. Haha…
If not I don’t think I can overcome that few days.



考试考完了，原来那些题目都那么得容易。
可是，那些我专注的就没有出。
原来教授都只出那些很basic的东西。
有点担心这次的成绩，应该不至于靠不过吧！
就当作这一次是一场教训吧！
从这个block学到不少，教授的教法、考试出题的方式等等。

After exam only realized that the question was so basic.
But I didn’t focus much on that.
The lecture only gave very basic question.
Quite worry for the result, but I think I will be able to passed it.
Just take it as a lesson this time.
I learn a lot from this block, ways of lecture, the question he will gave and so on.



考试前全力以赴，考试后接受结果。
Try your best before exam, and accept any of it’s result.