Beware the stare of Mary Shaw

Beware the stare of Mary Shaw
She had no children, only dolls
And if you see her in your dreams
Be sure you never, ever scream


谁会知道这首诗是哪里来的？
这时在Dead Silence剧情里面的传说。
我很喜欢这首诗，我觉得很特别。
Dead Silence的导演也就是之前很出名的Saw I ,Saw II 和 Saw III 的导演和编剧。
先说Dead Silence这部戏。我昨天看了，超好看的。
故事大纲是男主角接收到一个木偶后，他的妻子就被杀害，他却被怀疑是杀人凶手。他记得在他家乡有个传说。传说Mary Shaw是个很有名气的腹语表演者，有一天她却别谋杀，而她死后冤魂不散还利用了她所制造的木偶四处追寻仇家，然后把他们的后代子子孙孙全部杀尽。原来男主角是杀害Mary Shaw的后代，而他的老婆会被杀害是因为肚子里怀着他的孩子。我已经摆剧情最精彩的部分说完了，结局就自己看吧！
我最喜欢看恐怖片了，不管是鬼故事或虐待的戏我都喜欢看。认识我的人都知道我喜欢看恐怖片，还有朋友说我变态，因为我手提电脑里全部的电影都是恐怖片。
可我并不介意朋友这样讲我，因为我真得很喜欢看恐怖片。什么国家、什么语言的恐怖片也好我都喜欢。问我那个恐怖片好看准没错。
还是日本和泰国的恐怖片比较恐怖。英文的通常都不会很恐怖。虽然Dead Silence 的 Saw等都是英文的，可是却是很好看、蛮恐怖的。


Dead Silence剧情说完了，就要说说导演和编剧。
我迷上了这位导演的编剧。其实我很早就知道这位导演了，因为看过Saw后我就马上找出那导演和编剧。
这位大导演就是JAMES WAN。他其实是个马来西亚人，出生于马来西亚，可是现在是美国籍。当我第一次知道他是马来西亚人时，我真的万万也没想到原来马来西亚有这么一位出色的导演，真的觉得太光荣了。
他是Saw的导演和编剧，还有制作人。Saw I ,Saw II 和Saw III他都有担任导演、编剧的制作人，Dead Silence也是。



要知道James Wan的个人资料可以点击这里。


Dead Silence 的官方网站点击这里。


Saw I的官方网站点击这里。


Saw II的官方网站点击这里。


Saw III的官方网站点击这里。


Saw IV的官方网站点击这里。


对！你没看错！Saw IV 即将在2007年10月上映！我非常非常期待！！
官方网站有预告片，看起来好像很好看，比之前三部还要吸引人。

月亮圆

月亮圆


月亮圆 月亮圆 月亮照在我的家
没有春夏秋冬的家 流传千年
月亮圆 月亮圆 月亮照在我的家
没有春夏秋冬的家 流传千年
现在的孩子不相信 月亮有小白兔
功课与电脑 使他们不再听古老的神话
当高楼大厦 遮挡了古老的月亮
就趁这季节 让你的孩子知道
古老的神话 源自何方



短短的一首歌就可以表达现在人们的思想。
小孩不再相信月球上有玉兔，也不会相信嫦娥会飞上月亮。
月饼越来越多口味、越来越多选择。
谁还记得传统的月饼到底是怎样的？
还有小孩会再提纸灯笼吗？
或在中秋节时把家园挂满纸灯笼，然后再点上蜡烛。
中秋当天的月亮是否还向以前那么圆？
不知道现在的人，会不会在夜晚停下脚步抬头望一望天上的月亮...

为什么？

这星期以来好像还没真正的几下我的心情。
这个星期我过得并不好，我的运程还是一样低。
该做得都做了，该决定的也决定了。
这时有时还会犹豫我的决定是对还是错。
或许我选者的并不适合我。
还是我需要经过很多很多考验残可以到达目的地。
从星期一直到星期五，所有的事都不顺利，我做什么事都碰钉子。

首先星期一，新学期的第一天，第一天就把我考到了。我到学院抄时间表，早上并没有我的课，然后就回家去。
第二天我竟然看错时间表，原本早上没课的却去学院。到达后才知道看错时间表，然后又回家，白白走一趟。
第三天，也忘了什么不愉快的事。
第四天，到达学院了才知道上课的时间改去下午，是昨天决定的，可是没有人告诉我。有白白走一趟。
第五天，回到家，却还是发生很不愉快的事。我不想再提了。

连续五天都很不幸、很不愉快。不只学业的问题，还有人际关系。真不知道为什么我的他的关系就好像什么都不是。上个星期日那天还去他的家。当天并没有什么不妥，那天他刚从perhentian到回来,我们还谈了不少。可是最近我们却像个陌生人，没有联络。我根本就找不到他。总觉得他旅行回来后就变了人，应该是认识了新朋友，整天和新朋友吧！可是不只我说他变，就连他的朋友都说他变了，说他好像不像和我们联络，每次找他都好像不在。我也不知道它发生什么事，问我也没用，我自己的是都搞不好，还有什么权利去关心别人。

上天不知道为什么要这样对待我。这个学期我原本要拿三科，今天决定拿两科就够了。其中一科原本说很有把握可以得到A，可是教授那天突然跟我说她只教到十一月，过后就会有新的教授代替她。我告诉敏，敏脱口而出说道：我不知道你到底做什么的，不知道要怎样讲，好像都很衰。

没错！超级衰！我做错什么了吗？到上天要这样对待我。

我的黑暗期什么时候才会过？

thank you

thank you amanda for writing this post for me...didn't thought that you will do this.

well...partly for me. i'm really very touch... i didn't blame you for not comfort me that day cause i know if i were you i also don't know what should i say. it is quite hard for me actually... it just just right in front of my but i cant catch it. it's so near... but i think i will be fine soon. maybe i am over confident last time that's why my disappoinment also very big.

i know actually a lot people care for me... thank you everyone that sms me and comfort me. a little of care means a lot for me.



taken from amanda's blog:

i learnt to not be overly confident the hard way.

case #1
long long time ago when i just started learning tennis, after a year and half i was practically manjung no.1 haha seriously. i got no.1 in manjung when i was in standard 6, so become wakil daerah and went to ipoh for state level comp. i can't really remember what happened but i got kicked in the ass pretty badly. lost 1-6. ok that's really embarassing. see, don't be over confident. gotta practise and practise with seniors who're better than u until u get perak no.1 then only can be overconfident. ok fine, u're a high achiever unlike me, so aim for the sky for all i care.

case #2
a couple of years ago when i was the cute girl in form2 and still am, i went ipoh again for state comp again. no the same thing didn't happen, coz i got screwed 0-6 in the 1st round. but but but...... at the end my opponent became perak no.1 so u can't blame me right?? argh. she was damn good in giving ppl service aces. i can still remember her name haha jessica. such big impact on my life.

case #3
driving. when the uncle asked me to drive to the institute, i drove with confidence although i was a little bit scared. so many freaking lorries ok?? i was damn proud of myself for making it there unharmed hehee. and u know the duration of having to practise right? i didn't really practise seriously coz i was full of myself. i thought to myself, why the heck am i still pratising when i already can drift?? i made that up, but that's not the point! i was so full of myself, and when i went for the driving test, i failed the fucking parking. it was one of my worst nightmares! because of that i didn't have the chance to drive to installation :\ sad. i shouldn't have failed!! the poles did not fall down at all. it just tilted like 5 degrees, 10 at most. that freak. he should just go and be an optician since his eyes are so freaking sharp. grr.

yet again, overconfidence overpowered the overweight me.

no i'm not finished.

case #4
when i was with my 1st boyfriend, innocent 15-year-old-me. yeah i was wanted kuakuakua. i was in 3a2, got 21st in class for half year exam. but then for finals, very confident lo, study little bit, i got 3rd!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HAHAHAHAHA

the moral of the stories above is, BE CONFIDENT! *pablo tone* trust me, it works for me~ it's no big deal if u lost a game or two in some crappy tennis game or knocked down some poles along the way coz ultimately the most important thing is u get 3rd in class. oh yeah i forgot to mention, i got 1st in class when i was in 5s2 *grins* see, i turn out fine.

melissa, i know it's hard to know the truth but everything happens for a reason, be it involving God or not. things don't just happen randomly eg: if u cook salted fish, the flies sure come and attack it right? if u boil water, they won't appear wadd. Don't be so hard on yourself, lift up ur chin and see what went wrong alright? i'm sorry i didn't comfort u the other day as i didn't know what to say and will eventually make things worse. but if u need someone to talk to or a shoulder to cry on, i'll be there with boxes of tissue ready for ur cendol :) work your way up if u really want to join us so badly. do not complain why u have to do it again and again, coz it won't help in any way, instead it'll cause u mental stres and stuff like that. must take care ok? everyone's concern about u especially alex, cindy, lam( XD), ahmei, all your friends lah! not to forget the most important one, ME coz i wrote this because of u haha. well, partly la =p

take care and God bless. or Amitabha.

Question of the day : who keeps repeating the word Amitabha when she steps on a snail? haha

p/s: i update so often this weekend it's killing me with joy!!

麻木

好像都麻木了
所有发生的都出乎我意料之外
要发生的总会发生
我对自己太自信了吗
不是说我的自信早已碎成千万片
我生活里所发生的事都那么不顺利
看到身边一个又一个的人
不知道应该羡慕、妒嫉
还是对自己所拥有的一切
而感到幸福
心是少了挣扎
那又怎样
所有的事是改变不了的
接受了那又怎样
我变了
可是没有人发觉到
我的人生真的真的
失去了意思

speechless

thought that i will get my result today and get what i expect to get.
today everything was fine and moves so smoothly. i think it was a lucky day.
but out of my expectation, i can't know my result as what THEY promise.
THEY told me that i can get my result by TOMORROW.
hopefully what they said are true and no more delay of my result.
i go and see the lecturer and also the dean of foundation, but they don't allow me to take my result.
i told them i just want to know my grade...just my grade, that will be enough for me.
but....damn them... the dean says that they already calculate all the marks and pointer but i am not allow to get the result because they not yet have senat meeting.
damn... every time the say reason. i heard the reason for millions, billions of times.
still the old same story.
from this morning since the time i woke up, i already prepare physically and mentally about my result that i was suppose to get.
then go for class for 4 hours ++ and struggling inside myself...among my angle and devil.
right after class i go and ask for my result and the damn s****d dean give me the damn excuse.
i was so disappointed..............
don't even know what to say...
and just now i get to know some of them get to see the result.
damn again!
so unfair!!!
a boy and a girl go and ask for the result.
and the s****d dean gave the boy to see the result.....
i was speechless...............................................

i really don't know what to say...i really don't know what to say...

i really don't know what to say...

hahaha... thank you very much for your present.
although i like to receive present...

but.....


where got people buy this kind of present to give to a friend...........
i mean a boy to a girl.

i rather you bring back a bottle of sand from pulau perhentian for me as present.
hahahahahahahaha.....

sorry ya... no offence... hehehehe...

life is so sickening

i attended physiology class since this monday. i think the class was interesting but also realise that what i knew are really very very little. also don't know what will be happen in next few days.thursday will have open book test and friday will have mcq test.

what is life?
i feel that i already lost the excitement of my life. everything was so lame and bored. as if i don't have courage in anything i'm doing now. i'm not sad, i'm not down. just feel nothing at all. i still can talk, still can laugh. still can playing around, but i'm just not what i use to be.

don't know what will my result be. feel like i want to know it now but i can't sure how's my result. i don't have 100% about my result. hopefully everything will be fine.

life is so sickening.

present

Thank you very much wei ling for giving me a present. She is the only friend who gave me a present. We went to watch movie yesterday night then went to jonker. I bought a bag there, for nothing. I really surprise she gave me that present. Just not long ago, deep inside my heart I wanted a bear or any doll which have fur very much. Then…she gave me this puppy. I also want to have a puppy as pet since I was very young, but my mother will not allow because she don’t like fury animals. So… no choice.

Thanks again to you wei ling ~




my present before i open it.


see already know is wei ling handwriting. is the same since i knew her. enver change. hahaha...


actually us a little puppy.......


this post nicer...haha.


always the same...


what a wonderful card.


and wonderful wishes!


and more picture......


present from my sister...jay's secret ost


she get it at around RM115 instead of RM128.


cake from my mom...

不能说的秘密。电影原声带

周杰伦

首部导演。原创版本。主题电影作品

首次钢琴演奏。创作配乐电影原声带

4首主题歌。插曲 –

不能说的秘密 X 周杰伦最刻骨的情歌

女孩别为我哭泣 X 名词人黄俊朗首度现声

晴天娃娃 X 江语晨初试蹄声清新之作

情人的眼泪 X 湘伦与小雨最爱的老歌

21首唯美配乐 –

周杰伦&泰国配乐大师Terdsak Janpan联手编织

100页典藏记录册-

叶湘伦和路小雨的秘密精彩剧照

珍藏生生感动

不能说的秘密

电影原声带

典藏记录册

限量推出

隐藏琴键与指间的爱恋秘密 穿梭在古典与流行的浪漫音符

thank you 谢谢

thank you everyone that wish me on my birthday!

even though just a simple sms and simple wishes but all that mean a lot for me.

thank you whoever that leave comment in my friendster and send e-card to me.

here they are the names....
wei ling, siew chin, yee zin, pey yein, mumtazah, wafaa, aneesah, fahmi, lam, kuan yun, jia min, mei, zai yang, faiz(mmu), kai shiuan, mapleleaf(hui), alex, fitri, cindy, xin yi, aaron, ying ying, ko shin, zawir

i think that's all. if i missed anyone name then i'm very sorry.

thank you my mom cause she bought a cake for me.

thank you my dad cause he gave me to a wonderful dinner and my favorite crab.

thank you my sis for bought me jay's latest 'secret' soundtrack album.

thank you my bro for wishing me.

thank you my godmother for treated me a dinner yesterday night.

thank you siew chin for treated me secret recipe cake, a cup of cappucino and her time for talking and meeting with me this afternoon.

thank you wei ling for spare some times for tomorrow to watch movie and go jonker with me. i know you are very busy and exam is coming soon.

lastly, to NSH. 我今天收到你的包袱了，谢谢你的礼物。对你我也只有非常抱歉。你的心思放错了地方。祝福你。

祝我生日快乐！！！

祝我生日快乐！！！

注定

我不知道他为什么要这么做。明明说好不想再有任何关系，可是他偏偏好像不明白。

我昨天还告诉我自己，在我生日到来之前，要和他完完全全没有关系，因为我还欠他一本书还没还。

我 和他是在网上认识的。那天，我的朋友因为太忙不能和我聊天又不好意思拒绝我，就随便推了他给我认识，要我跟他聊天。聊着聊着我们就开始成为朋友，从上网聊 天到传简讯，然后还约出来见面、看电影。其实，那时候我已经很清楚地告诉他，我们只能做朋友，不会多过于朋友。对我来说，男生和女生也可以做很单纯的好朋 友而已。即使是男生女生两个人出去逛街、看电影，也只是以朋友的身份。我一直以来都以为男生和女生都可以做很单纯的朋友，现在才知道原来都不行。

我其实知道他对我有意思的，当时我真的不想谈恋爱，就坚持只做朋友。我们都一直维持朋友的关系，一直到我去国民服役。我们还是每个星期联络一次，可是我们的友情就开始慢慢变质了。造成我们俩友情变质的是我们自己。

有 一天，我们像往常一样传简讯，然后他就假扮他妹妹跟我传简讯，目的就是要逼出我承认我对他是有感觉的。我不否认当时的我的确对他是有好感，因为他让我有好 几次地感动。我当然记得他所为我做的一切，可是我不想因为承认对他的感觉，而让他觉得有希望。他会抱着那个希望，一天一天慢慢像雪球那样越来越大，到时希 望会变失望。我当时觉得他妹妹不可能这样跟我传简讯，因为我们根本就不认识。另一方面又觉得她所说的话有很真。我不知道那时的我为什么会这么笨。传简讯更 本就预料不倒对方在设计什么，因为我们无法看到对方的样子，当时就是因为‘信任’这两个字，然我觉得他不可能假扮他妹妹做这种事。

后 来他却告诉我，那天那个人其实是他而不是他妹妹。当时的我，我真不知道应该怎么形容我自己。很多问题从我脑中出现。为什么他要骗我？为什么就是要知道那个 答案？为什么要假扮他妹妹？为什么就不能直接问我？为什么骗我后还要让我知道？我当时想，既然他都骗我那一切是他妹妹的所作所为，为什么后来还告诉我。我 宁愿谎言永远都不被才穿，那么我们是不是不会落到如此的下场？贞，我的朋友说我怎么这么单纯，这么容易相信别人？我想我不是单纯，而是信任。我相信他不会 这样弄我的，是因为我对他的信任。都已经是那么好的朋友了，就应该要有彼此信任。可是我没想到我很真诚的心却得到如此的回报。我只是觉得，人与人之间的交 情不是应该要有信任的吗？

谎 言被才穿后，一切就变了。我的心情很乱，感觉很乱，思想也很乱。他说他会补偿我的。那句话让我很气很气。难道说他欺骗我后就可以补偿吗？要拿什么来补偿 啊？如果什么事都可以补偿，那么世界早就和平了。那么以后他所做错的一切，都可以以“补偿”这两个字儿当作没事吗？非常对不起，我做不到。我告诉他：就像 你那一把刀割伤我，就算伤口愈合了，伤疤还是存在的。过了十年、二十年，伤口还会存在。补偿医药费、治疗费，伤疤还是存在。补偿又是什么呢？

过后我们的关系越来越淡。每次想到他就会想到当时的我为什么那么愚蠢会上他的当。我气他,更气我自己。那时我知道，我对他的好感是因为他做了很多很多让我感动的事。而，我寻找的并不是感动。好感为因为一时的差错而变成恶感，感动也会一时的差错而变成什么都不是。

渐 渐我也一直避开他，我想他是知道的，我也明白我不可能一直避开他，还是做个了断比较好。我告诉他我们暂时还是不要联络，我需要时间。多久我不知道，可是我 需要时间接受这一切，也需要忘记这一切。可是，过了很久我还是做不到。我试着为他找借口，试着跟自己说不要为了一件小事那么在意，他的要求只是很简单地要 维持朋友的关系。可是，我就是不能当作什么事也没发生过。

他 给我的时间太少了。一阵子后，他一直联络我，我就突然有一种想法，那就是结束这一切。我和他说就连很普通的朋友我也不想当。我要断绝我们的关系。我知道我 很残忍，我也承认我是残忍的。理智和感性，我还是比较理智的。就算他有多不愿意，我做了决定的事就不会后悔。我说绝交就是绝交了。我不接电话也不回复他的 简讯。久了，平静了。

但 是，有过了一阵子，他又会联络我。我尽量不回复他的简讯，他的关心让我觉得是打扰。非常对不起我这么说。绝交了就是绝交。要是我在路上碰到他，我可以当他 是陌生人，也可以当他是透明。他暗中关心我，我也知道。只是，我已经透明化了。看到也变看不到。我很绝情，我很可恶，我很无情，我很残忍，我都承认。

一个月以前，他email了我的朋友，跟她要我的地址。他想要给我生日礼物。而我朋友最近在察看来信，就这样迟了一个月。我的生日就在明天。

我 想说的是，我并没有后悔我做的决定，我也决定不会后悔。绝交就是绝交了。我跟你不会再有任何关系，也不想有任何关系。再多的感动对我来说都只会是无动于 衷。我不想要什么生日礼物，你的费心我是再也不会了解的。对你，我只有抱歉和对不起。我真的没有办法面对你。不要问我为什么，要是知道为什么，我们就不会 有如此的下场了。就连很简单的朋友我也无法当。现在开始，你过你的人生，我过我的人生，我的生活也不用你来操心，你的操心对我来说会是多余的。也许你会是 我的损失。就像你所说的，很多事情都是注定的。注定了就没有必要改变。我没有什么要说的了，就这样。希望你明白。保重！

1.45am
6/9/07

最好的祝福

原来还有人多人支持我的，真得很感动。

今天傍晚突然得到Alex的简讯：
how r u there? Having final exam right? Just wan 2 wish u all the best. I am waiting 4 u at 1st year u know? Hahaso dun giv up, u are almost there d! Good luck

他会祝福我真的是出乎我意料之外，顿时感动了。没想到他还会记得我这个星期大考，他也一直默默关心我的成绩。

也非常谢谢敏，她也是在星期一早上传了一则简讯祝福我。即使是短短good luck两个字，却可以让我有无数的感动。

还有fitri、vu等，也在上网聊天时还有email里祝福我。

谢谢那些祝福我的朋友。

其实我也真得很想很想进first year的mbbs，可是积分不够所以需要重读一个学期。这是上天给我开的一个大玩笑。希望这一次我的积分是够的，虽然我们的成绩不可能在下个星期就公 布，教授允许我们这些重读的学生下个星期假如他的班，要不然我们会错过很多课。我真的真的真的很希望这一次是顺顺利利的。

我可以放弃很多东西，但是我就是不想辜负我自己、我父母、家人、朋友、支持我的人、还有很多很多等等等。我可以放弃爱情、还有很多我应该得到的东西，可我需要我的梦想。

我还没掉泪，也不想掉泪。我会告诉我自己：“加油！我一定可以的！”

examination

i don't know what should i say about my bio paper today. the objective part were so difficult. i don't know i still can get good result at mid sem or not. essay part was ok. i can asnwer the all the question instead of choosing only two question. but short answer question were also difficult. i can't really comfirm my answer. i have to get at least B+ for bio and chem. i don't dare to imagine what will i get for my bio.

i'm quite disappointed actually. i studied so much and memoriseso much but....... i guess is just not my lucky. i always bad luck in my examination. i never get what i suppose to get. "just forget about bio now!" i told myself right after my bio test. now i should put more efford in my chem. i have 2 days to study and i have to use the time wisely.

god bless me and wish me good luck!

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