懒散

好懒惰哦......
今天考完了第一张。
我也不太想说今天的考试。
说真的有点失望。
不知道可不可以得到A。
新的一年就要来临了。
新的一年有什么计划呢？
好懒惰想，好懒惰写。
中午睡了两个小时，现在还觉得很悃。
星期四还有一张要考的。
还没真真很用功的读。
今晚很多人会去倒数吧！
今晚我应该会比平时早睡吧！
祝大家2008新年快乐！

慢热

我是那么慢热的吗？
终于在今天顺顺利利的做习题。
多数的都得到正确的答案。
我不是对自己没自信。
应该是压力搞鬼。
荷尔蒙在旁协助。
我是太有自信了。
每一次都是因为太有自信而害死我。
太有自信就会爬得很高。
爬得越高，跌得越重。
希望这一次好运是站在我这的。
尽了最大的能力做到最好了。
加油加油！
我知道有一些朋友也将在最近末靠。
祝你们好运！加油加油！
good luck to everyone who having exam soon!


这几天都很热。是因为天气热吗？
还是就像“心静自然凉”的说法那样，心乱自然热？？

怎么办？

将要来临的星期一就是期末考了。
第一张就是数学。
现在的我是多么困难才可以找到正确的答案。
废多么的心思才找到解答。
不知道为什么突然好像失去解答能力。
之前都好好的。
不只是好，而是很好。
给我什么问题我都能做出来。
前几天就出现症状。
简简单单的题目竟然不会做。
突然变得越来越笨，越来越迟钝。


怎么办怎么办怎么办怎么办怎么办怎么办怎么办怎么办怎么办


真的真的不知道怎么办了。
是因为压力吗？
好像是镇的因为压力。
我给自己的压力太大了吧！
今天一整天做数学题做到怕了。
对的几天而已。
很不满意我的表现啊！


怎么办？
谁来救我啊？

霉！

今天又过了倒霉的一天。
怎么我的总是遇到倒霉的事。
倒霉总是离不开我。
上天好像都在妒嫉我。
每一次都要我遇上倒霉的事。
不能有一个星期是顺顺利利地过。
有时我也会怀疑是不是有人妒嫉我故意做降头给我。

昨天开始心里总觉得不舒服。
谁也睡不好。
今天早上评审迟到。
教授明明说十二点半评审的，怎么知道她突然提早十二点考。
还好只是迟十分钟。

还以为这个星期可以存比较多的零用钱。
中午竟然没有理由的浪费掉RM50。
有够气的了！
我竟然可以把握的车钥匙反锁在车内。
真是伤心啊。
不知道应该将自己笨还是白痴。
我的车会自动上锁，竟把我的车钥匙反锁车里。
而且是差一秒的那种。
我正要开把手的时候它就上锁。
当时我真的无言。
还好我学院附近有五金店。
那个uncle会开锁的。
要不然......
当时真得很想找个山跳下去。

开一个门要50块。
不用你跟我讲我也知道很贵。
哭死了啦！
我朋友竟然炸我。
他说不如打破镜子拿那钥匙，因为换个车窗只需要30块。
注定要花的钱就是得花。
50快少了...50快可是很多。
我可以买很多很多东西的。
被人可以吃很多很多餐的。

霉啊霉！
请你不要靠的我太近！

圣诞节快乐 merry christmas

这个圣诞依然那么的淡
末考竟然就在圣诞节后的一个星期
原本很期待的圣诞倒数
变成被冷雪冻冰了
早在几个星期已经和jeslyn越好倒数的
那天因为爸爸一句：都要考试了，还有mood去倒数？
真得让我很失望
也在前一天放jeslyn飞机

怎么知道圣诞前夕我爸爸竟然说不如我们到哪里走走
我跟朋友一起庆祝就不可以有mood？
跟家人去就有mood?
令我真得很不爽
今天一路走，心情越来越失落
看到人山人海
都是和朋友一起欢呼
我却得冷冷默默的走在父母的后面
看到街道上的人
根本就没有想我年龄的人士更着父母来的

朋友跟父母是永远不会一样的
气氛也明显不一样
我竟然在那里遇到jeslyn
不知道因该说有缘还是什么
这么大的地方都可以给我们遇上
当时她正和她的朋友玩得很开心
如果我没有放飞机
如果没有我把那句话
我想，我也正和她一样快乐

我上去跟她打招呼
她还感到很惊喜
还喷了我一身的‘雪’
她真得很不客气，喷得我整身都是
而且我还是穿深红色的外套
很明显
可是那里的人有谁不被喷呢
还遇到carmen...

又过了那么淡的圣诞节
和去年一样
哪一年的圣诞节
我才会过得不一样呢？

圣诞节快乐！！

merry christmas!!

天使。恶魔

我的心里
充满了不平衡
为什么
人与人之间
差距有这么大
当上帝
制造人类时
为什么
会出现那么多的
不公平
有人要风得风
要雨得雨
而
另一些的人
做得要死要命
就是得不到
他们应得的

我以为
自己
接受得到
这些不公平
自己
安慰自己
自己
提醒自己
是有多么的幸福
原来
我也是贪心的
已经拥有的
却还是觉得不够
想要更多
更好的

我一点
也不单纯
因为
心里
总是有个恶魔
不时地
在提醒我
我
也很可怜
我
也应该得到
跟他们一样的
待遇

我心里的
天使
却很单纯
因为
她常提醒
我
有多么
多么的幸运
我
所得到的
已经很多
比世界上的
很多人
多很多

心里的天使
不一定能
打败恶魔
恶魔
不一定会
输给天使
天使很强
恶魔也很强

恶魔贪心
想要更多
更多
更多更多
更多更多更多

天使满足
觉得够了
够了
够了够了
够了够了够了

心里面的
不平衡
什么时候
才会平衡

保持联络

星期三回到家，感觉真好。
圣诞节那天会回去宿舍，然后将会有末期考试。
这几天只是动动机小时的书，然后就再也啃不下去了。
真希望我可以用功一点。
回到家就连上网都懒惰，对着电视就够了。
真得很佩服自己，要是可以看戏就可以什么都不管。

短短两天竟然让我找回了两个失去联络满久的人。
一个是小学同学，另一个是中学同学。
原来找回以前的朋友是那么得愉快的。
感觉上他们都过得很好。
让我有一种冲动想找回更多更多久朋友。

小学同学是一位男生，叫alex。
小学时我是读男女校，平时跟男生比较容易打成一片。
他其实也是我幼儿园的朋友，只是那时我们都还很小，都不太记得了。
小学时我竟然跟他同班三年，算很好吧。
以前我们都很单纯，不会像现在的小孩子动不动就说喜欢。
记得每次下课时，我们都回到食堂买食物填填肚子。
那时，其中一个去买食物，另一个便订位子和拿筷子。
我们每次都会轮流去买食物和订位子。
直到四年级时我们被分班了，可是我们的友情还是很好。
想不到的是我们竟然还一起补习，真是难得的缘分。
可是从四年级开始我们每天都打打杀杀的。哈哈...
我的意思是说我们每一天都会玩玩闹闹的，你打我一下我打回你一下。
就这样打打闹闹的到六年级毕业。
那时还传出绯闻，说我们两个是男女朋友。
可是四年级以后我们都没有同班过。
毕业过后更没有联络。
我知道他在独中，而我在国中。
我每年都会寄新年贺卡，圣诞卡等等的。
可是他都没有回信。
我还以为他搬家了呢！
就这样六七年过去了。
我们在这几年从来都没有碰过面。
倒是我们的妈妈，常常都在碰面，而她们也只是打个招呼问候。
直到最近，我妈妈又碰到他妈妈了。
他妈妈说alex已经去英国深造，还跟我妈妈要了我的电话。
他妈妈说alex想找我很久了，每次我记卡片给他都没有办法回复我因为没有我的地址。
我妈妈前两个星期给了我的手提电话号码给他妈妈。
没想到星期三那天就收到一个人的简讯，问我我的msn邮址。
原来是他的朋友放假回来大马所以帮忙他问我的邮址。
过后昨天在网上跟他聊了一阵，原来我没变。
照片他一看就人得出我了。

另一个朋友是中学时的朋友。
她是个女生，vicky，因为中学我读女校。
我们都有对方的手机号码，可是就是没联络。
我们以前在学校还是最好最好的朋友。
真不明白为什么我么可以没联络，我自己都不明白我自己。
今天一早我sms她问候她。
过后傍晚时她才回复我，因为她有上课。
sms了一阵，感觉上她好像不是很友善。
原来是我敏感，她给我她msn然后叫我上网跟她聊天，而且是很期待的那种语气。
在网上聊了满久的，她还是一点也没变。哈哈哈...
真的真得很开心呐！
她还说她很想我，要找个时间出来见见面。
真是难以形容的快乐啊！

其实我很敏感，也很容易受到伤害。
我承认是自己想得太多。
就像刚才来说，我还以为vicky并不是很想跟我sms。
但其实她也是想我的。
是我自己过不了我心里的那关。
因为我总觉得我主动联络人家并不代表人家也想联络我。
要是他忘了我应该怎样。
要是我不要想那么多就好了啊！

朋友，保持联络！！

keep walking

i am suppose to be studying right now...
but i don't have any mood to study at all...
wasting my time doing stupid things...
i admit that i am lazy...
bored and mood shouldn't be my reason.
i wonder why some people could just sit down and concentrate in study.
my mind will just blow away after half an hour of sitting still.
i wish i will have some of the courage like other people.
how to be hardworking?
how to study a page for timessss and will not feel bored?
how to not too depends on my mood?
i still have moreeeee to learn......
i still have long way to go.......

青花瓷抽书得奖名单

昨天晚上太无聊了所以在很多人的部落格闲逛。
不知不觉去到方文山的部落格看看。
无经义看到青花瓷抽书得奖名单。
继续看下去，竟然看到黄德峻的名字。
感到意外又惊喜。






刚开始知道有这个游戏时是在黄德峻的部落格读到的。
我也有参加。
我并没什么期望，只是抱着‘我也要参与一份’的心情去参加。
况且是抽签的，我自己知道我的运气并不会那么好的。
抽奖一定不会有我的份。

真没想到黄德峻会得奖。
在四百多人当中脱颖而出。
而且这是抽签方式，表示他很好运。
看到消息后我便到他的部落格留言。
由于没看到他有些关于得奖的文章，我猜想他应该还不知道吧！
没想到他真的不知道，看到我的留言还以为我在开玩笑。哈哈！
我突然发现到，黄德峻是得奖者当中最早参加的哦！
看看方文山‘青花瓷抽书得奖名单’的短片就可以发现到黄德峻有多幸运了。呵呵！


记得我参加时选出我喜欢的一句是“天青色等烟雨 而我再等你”。
很巧的，这篇和上次我写关于我参加的那一篇刚好是一个月后的今天。
在此恭喜黄德峻。
真是替他感到高兴又惊喜。
感觉上我好像比他本人还高兴。哈哈哈！

cappu-jeslyn

前两天在msn遇到jeslyn，她以开玩笑的语气说想找我聊天。
我一看就看得出来她是有心事的，我说不如我打电话给你吧。
她在扭扭捏捏的，说什么浪费我电话钱、没什么大不了的事等。
越听越觉得不对劲，最后我还是打电话给她，那时已经是半夜了。

刚刚聊天时，她还嘻嘻哈哈的。
过后我问她到底发生了什么事。
原来前几天她在路上看到一只被车撞得奄奄一息的小狗，那只狗全身湿湿的，还发抖着。
她觉得很可怜便把cappu抱起来，带它到兽医看诊。
医生说cappu很难治好的了，要是治好了，也是需要很多钱的时间的，而且还有可能瘫痪。
她和她的朋友带回家去。带回家的cappu每晚都会哭，是因为它太痛苦了吧！
过了两天，jeslyn建议她们把cappu带到SPCA，那里也许会有更好的照料，而且他们都还是学生，上午时分都在上课。
有过了两天，SPCA的人打电话告诉他们，SPCA的人员已经跟那cappu打针，让它睡一个永远不会醒的觉。

jeslyn听到后很伤心很伤心，我可以想象出她的伤心是怎样的。
她是无论怎样都不会让自己掉眼泪的人。
即使很伤心，她还是会在你面前小小的，告诉你没事的不用担心。
那天在电话里跟她聊天，她竟然哭了起来。
我认识她有七八年了，从来就没有看过她在我面前掉眼泪。
那天听到她哭，我就知道她有多伤心了。
不止伤心，她还自责,因为是她建议把cappu带到SPCA的。
她说要使她没有建议带cappu去SPCA它就不会走。

除了静静地听，我也没说什么，因为我知道她现在只需要人听听她要说的话。
她说她和cappu怎样相遇，以及相处短短的5天，还一直自己责怪自己。
最后还哭了。
我安慰她说，她已经作了意见很棒很棒的事。
很多人，包括我，即使真地看到路上有一只被汽车撞倒的小狗，也未必会停下车看看它还把它带到兽医看诊。
现在cappu走了并不表示不好，毕竟它活着也是会痛苦的，那几天放在家都听到它每个晚上都会哭。
cappu走到另一个世界，它会过得更幸福平安的。也不会再有汽车穿过它了。

和她聊了半个小时多，我听听她已经平静下来了，也想开了。
不会再睡不着和不去上课了。
今天看到她在她的部落格写下这件事，看来她已经面对这个事实了。
过了这么多天他才把那天的事写下来，我想她终于把这件事消化了。
希望过了不久她会渐渐放得开。


jeslyn:
actually you really did a very good thing which normally people won't do.
you stop down and see her and bring her to treatment, that's already a very very big thing.
even me... sometimes i also heartless...
remember few weeks before, when i driving on the road.
i saw a monkey lying on the road, bleeding because of pass through by some car.
i saw it... i feel it... i feel pity about the little monkey...
it is bleeding and i can see clearly that the monkey it suffering... because he breath hardly and i can saw the emotion on his face.
although i was 3 second passing beside the monkey, but the expression is so clear in my mind... till now.
i got think of stopping down and bring it to pet clinic... but i just didn't stop by.
if you ask me why i didn't stop by and help... i just can say i am heartless...
the road are too busy? there are too many car? no place for me to stop down?
no more reason that can help me to wash over my sin... i just didn't stop by and help the monkey.
can you see what you've did?
it was really a great job...
you should be proud of yourself and wish that cappu will happy and live in peace in another world... no matter there will be another world for him or not...
in your life, cappu leave this world. but in cappu life, you are the one who save her, bring her to clinic, and stop her suffering.
don't feel sad anymore...... stand up again and keep walking......

周末

最近搞失踪...
其实不是。
上个星期五就回家了，一直到昨天，星期二才回来宿舍。
星期六去理发店剪头发，还离子烫。
把一年流的长发剪得满短的。
从长到腰部的头发剪到肩膀，还剪了刘海。
每个看到我见了头发的人都给我很大的反应。
各个都会问：“你剪头发了啊！”“前面刘海剪得这么短啊！”
在网上聊天的朋友看到照片后会问：“你头发是不是捡得很短了？”
其实都不会很短，我觉得还好吧。
这一次把那么长的头发剪掉，好像一点也不会觉得不舍得或可惜什么的。
只觉得一头很重很重的头竟然变得很轻了。
很轻松、很清爽。
对这次的发型我很满意。
只是很普通很普通的发型。
我不会像别人那样要求最新潮的，获最流行的。
只要自己看的顺眼就好了。

我妈妈在PC fair买了一部手提电脑。
比平时便宜RM200，还有免费20个小礼品，因为圣诞节的到来而有特价。
回家的那几天除了搞失踪也当废人。
原本打算要读书的，考试就要到了。
可我竟可以在两天内看完“换换爱”-- 贺军翔、杨丞琳和王传一主演。
我是为了要看王传一的...哈哈哈！
我也不知道为什么我会喜欢看他啊！

其实杨丞琳在西里面的角色饰演童嘉蒂。
在童嘉蒂里，我看见自己。
我和她的思想在某些方面设很相似的。
她常说：没有希望，就不会有失望。
其实我也常常说这一句。
之前我的文章也不少又说到这一句的。
其实好有很多的，下次再写吧。


最后放上我的近照。呵呵。

生锈了......生锈了！

真的很气！很不甘愿！很不爽！
我可以很没有理由的讨厌一个人。
不管他做什么我都会觉得不对、不顺眼、都是错。
她怎么会出一提这么无理的问题？？
更本就不应该出那么废的问题。
还亏我准备得那么多。
偏偏希望出的那一提却没有出。

刚上完数学课，而且有小评审。
第二题的做法真的是错的离谱。
为什么我的头脑就不会扭转一点，就是那么的死板。
那么容易的题目我却做得那么挣扎，而且还是拿到错的答案。
天啊！回到家做后才发现原来那么容易做的。
为什么那个时候我就是想不到怎么做啊？
真得很气。

我还是没得到教训。
希望越高，失望越高。
我一直希望这一次的评审可以得到满分，或至少可以得到高的分数。
可是，错错错！
错的够不甘愿。
就差那么一点，就差那么一点点。
我的脑真的生锈了，生锈了。

分开以后

刚刚和phang还有alex吃火锅。
amanda告诉我mei今天没有煮，所以phang叫alex和我一起去。
刚出发时mei就sms我问我要不要一起去。
都答应alex了只好拒绝mei。
反正也很久没有和alex一起吃了。
没想到即使不一样course后，我们的关系还很不错。
不像别的朋友，好像都很不熟了，谈不到几句就不知道要说什么了。
另一方面也是因为alex的人很容易keng得来。
就连吃一餐也可以用上3个小时以上。

mei刚sms我明天要不要去starthill吃sushi buffet。
答案还是老样子。那就是我不能去。
我上课从中午两点到四点，而她们偏偏会在这个时候去，应该是有折扣吧！
没有办法。
只从不一样course后，我们的时间表都不能配合到对方的时间。
每一次她们有什么计划时，就是和我的时间相撞。
真不知道老天爷是不是故意在整我。

废物

除了无聊和懒惰，我不知道应该用什么来形容我。
部落格被荒废、整天除了看戏还是看戏。
grey's anatomy,ugly betty, criminal minds, prison break, house md, bleach...........
真的不知道我有什么戏是不看的。
太空闲了！这是造孽！！
别人忙着考试、assignment、学院生活等等等等的。
而我呢？就忙着追戏。
我好希望这个学期快快过。然后就有很多是可以做了。
有很多很多的事等待我去做。
可是不是现在。

这个星期没回家，没有理由的，就是突然不相回。
mei何amanda准备考试。
在马六甲的jeslyn也是在考试中。
再kl的芸也是快要考试了。
mymaple也要考试，就在study week。
还有一大队的朋友在stpm中。
怎么每个人都在考试啊！？
我也想考试！！

原来太空闲没事做并不是好事。
我快荒废我自己了。
我的头脑块生锈了。
我的肢体快残废了。
我快变废物了！

人种的测验

人种的测验<-- 都不准确的！

family day

long time no update again... what am i doing until update so seldom now...
went back to my hometown, malacca last week and came back this morning to cyberjaya.
went out with yun on friday, had a visit to Mr Wong and chat with him.
then go to mp with yun.
at first we want to watch movie but enchanted is not available yet.
so we just walk around, sit down and talk about our life.
we found out one common thing-- studies are difficult.
then we went to red square, planning to sing k.
but then one room minimum must have 3 person...why got such rules?? stupid.
i called jeslyn and she was sleeping that time.
i think she still sleeping although she answer my phone.
then today when she saw me online she ask me did i call her last friday.
i say ya cause want to call her out.
she say she forget everything except i called her.
she totally forget what i said and what she answered.
i was like..... what the.... really speechelss.
she that day some more can ask me where am i, doing what and together with who.
when i ask she weather wake up already or still in the dream she still can answer me she woke up.
never mind... next time we go sing k again.
cause now only i know malacca also got karaoke box. hahahaha...

i think my parent not very happy with my result although i get A in my math.
i think it is because of physic result.
they should feel happy because i get A and if i maintain A in the final i surely pass this sem easily.
whatever....
last weekend, on sunday, i accompany my mom to supermarket and buy some grocery. after that we went back home.
after lunch, my mother together with my sister and brother sat in the living room and relaxing.
then we all talk and chat.
my mom says she wants to be our friend, if not we will not tell everything to her.
there are sure to be a gap between us...i mean the parent and children.
it is hard to avoid the gap unless we were being very close since childhood.
and as for my family, we are quite traditional thinking and we will have respect-to-elder thinking.
so i think it is quite hard if we want to be as friends an talk everything.
it is for sure that we will still keep something from them.
ok...out of point.
out of my expectation, we talk quite a lot that day.
talk about everything but mostly our childhood and also about my dad. hahaha...
he was working so my mom talked about him... haha...
of course not about bad things of my dad.
just what happened in our childhood as we can't remember.
when my dad came back from work i heard my mom proudly tell my dad that we talk in the whole afternoon.
and my dad ask my mom what we talk about...
my mom just answered talk we about the past.

for me there surely still a gap between me and my parent.
there are still some things that they can't accept and have different thinking as me.
if we can't agree each other sure will create some argument and dissatisfaction.
i rather keep it to myself then tell them to avoid all the unhappy things happen.
and hopefully every weekend will be like last week... huhu...

photo tagged

i went to amanda's blog and read her post just now... so many updates in one day.
i was tagged by her... and she seems to be very happy and excited to tag me. she put me in the first and extra 2 "!!" exclamation marks at the end of my name.
hahaha... it is not so easy to see me retarded in my picturesss... hahaha...
here go my tagged.


1. A picture of you making a peace sign:


the latest peace V-- in Le Meridien Hotel.


in some lecturer class


in the lab


with mei mei... who was sitting behind??

there are tonnes of picture of me with peace sign. my close friends will surely know that is my signature. hahaha...


2. A picture of you with your friends:


taking in bar-b-q. damn funny... amanda was the camerawoman. haha...


with vietnamese...except the 2 human standing behind us--> i don't know them...


me is secondary school uniform...omg~~


hanging beside the fountain in malacca megamall..


3. A picture of you at a weird / random place:


weird enough???
basically i don't go to weird place... i am a normal human and do normal things... hahahaha...


4. A picture of you in black and white:


erm... can this consider black and white? or blue and white...


5. A picture of you and your hair up:


long hair with hair up?? easy job.


6. A picture of you with a weird face:


this is damned......


this is speechless......huhu...


7. A picture of you wearing black coloured shirt:


crazy~~


aneesah and i at Dr. Lesley wedding dinner...

i realise i have so few black coloured shirt huh...


8. A picture of you wearing red coloured shirt:


errr....can this consider????

i realise i have few red shirt too...


9. A picture of you wearing green coloured shirt:


the only green......
seriously... i don't have much shirt...kakaka....


10. A picture of you with your Halloween costume:


not much different as a ghost... kakakaka


11. A picture with your mouth open:


my birthday at Hassan's...


my mouth clearly was open. did i laugh like 'hohoho'??


12. A picture with a horny/sluty face:


my sister says this look like GRO.... what the..........


or in swimsuit???


finally........
time for me to tag other people and see how will their photo be... kakakaka
1. jeslyn!!!! i told you. wuahahaha
2. yun
3. mymaple (do it pleaseeeee...hehehe)
4. 天行者莉璐金
5. ~:*:白雪不是公主:*:~
6. carmenluv
7. sinye
8. cui bap 37


more then enough la~~
only my college life and some friends photo in my laptop so the people you seen will be more or less the same few people.

damn happy!!

i am very happy today...
basically nothing special happened.
just that i get back my mid sem paper mark.
for my math, at last, i get what i aimed.
i get 90% for my mid sem exam and grade A for my total.
at last i get A for my math.
such an embaress not getting A among all these 'people'.
i get A this time and i can laugh as loud as i can... of course, to myself.
i also get back my physic paper actually.
i already know the result even i didn't see the result.
the result really didn't surprise me at all.
but if i manage to maintain the result at the final, i should passed my sem easily.
it is worth to get this kind of result in math...
even the lecturer also congrate me...
he says i had a big improvement...
imagine from C to A!!!
hahahahahaha..........

short weekend holiday

i went to Le Meridien Hotel on friday together with my family.
my parent came and fetch me at cyberjaya after my class in the morning.
my mother had a conference meeting at there together with my dad.
my mother was sponsor by a milk company for the whole trip.
we are lucky as we get 2 rooms.
one for my parent and another one for my sister and i.
i went to swimming with my sister and brother right after my parent went to the conference.
Hilton Hotel is just next to Le Meridien Hotel.
there are two pools and the pool is not as big as i imagine.
there are so many international people, from Korea,Japan,Philipines i think and a lot more.
we swim for hours then we get ready for dinner by 8pm.
we are served with Lebanese food, not really very nice actually.

the next morning we wake up quite early.
my mom gave us a morning call on 8.30am... that was too early.
we had breakfast on the fifth floor and the breakfast was really good. of course it should be good.
can you imagine how much we eat for the breakfast???
i cost RM280+++ for 5 of us. just a little breakfast.
can't blame it because it is a five stars hotel.

then i bring my parent to Mid Valley by monorial.
quite embaress to say that they didn't take monorial before. hahaha...
just some window shopping then we went back to hotel.
checked out and i am back in cyberjaya...

guess what?
i fall sick...
damn damn holiday.
i was damned by my stupid nose and throat.
i get serious flu because of my sinus and my throat is sore.
i think the air-conditional in the hotel was too dry...
i have no luck to stay in a five stars hotel and live like a wealthy people.

the flu continues this morning when i woke up and the throat is much more better then yesterday.
i wake up quiet early this morning as i sleep very late yesterday.
some more i woke up naturally.
had medicine for my flu and it is a lot better right now.

my brother sms me and complained i didn't wish for his birthday today.
no choice... called him back and wish him. he says he wants game for his ps...
no choice again... i asked for it.

i will go to KL with Vu soon.
he want to buys his ticket to go to Singapore as he is leaving soon.
he will go back to Vietnam and not sure want to come back here anymore...
i guess i can deal with separation and farewell pretty good now...
hope that he will choose to come back here again...


right is me and left is Vu.

i will really miss the time we had together......

天青色等烟雨 而我在等你

因为周杰伦而认识方文山这个人。
我喜欢周杰伦的曲，和喜欢方文山的词。
周杰伦的曲配方文山的词就变得天衣无缝。


在方文山的部落格[方道.文山流]看到这篇“《青花瓷》里你最喜欢哪一句？”。
为了感谢网友对《青花瓷》创作热情支持，他将会送出事本签名新书--《青花瓷--隐藏在釉色里的文字秘密。》
方法很简单。只需要从“青花瓷”歌词中挑一句有感觉与喜欢的歌词，并且在留言板上回应，就有机会得到他的新书。


我听周杰伦最新专辑有好几百次了。
每一次听到《青花瓷》这首歌，印象最深刻的有一句。
也就是副歌的第一句：“天青色等烟雨 而我在等你”。
那一句让我觉得永远都等不到似的。
这首歌听几遍都不会厌。

希望

我的部落格被我遗弃一个星期了。
可能是我的生活过的太平淡了吧，没有什么好写的。
今天终于考试完了。
这一次应该可以拿个A吧！ 这是我的目标。
我很快就做完了，大约只用一个小时吧。
却不敢太有自信，检查一遍又一遍。
希望这次真的可以达到我的目标。

最近，要说没事发生又好像很多事发生。
不顺利的多过顺利吧！
我好像可以接受了，用平常心看待吧。
上个星期回家那几天都很幸福。
就是很不知觉得觉得幸福。
可能太久没回去了吧。

最近的梦也很怪。
好像都是在说出我的心声。
都是我想说或做的可是我在现实的生活里没做到。
还好是发生在梦里，还是没人会懂。
才发现原来我也是带着面具做人的人。
又有谁不是呢？

还以为星期五会拿到周杰伦的最新专辑。
可是货在吉隆坡不在马六甲。
何jeslyn一起去mp看戏，走走逛逛的。
我们看Bee Movie。
我觉得蛮好看的。
因为在现实生活里是不可能发生的事。
还是童话世界最完美。
我也带了我的手提电脑去修理，怎么是到reformat后跟多问题。
星期六拿到周杰伦的专辑，送一个给jeslyn作为生日礼物。
这一年她的生日我们回去和她庆祝，有点内疚。
看来她拿到周杰伦的专辑很兴奋，还不舍得开。
直到第二天才舍得将外面那层纸皮扒开。

考试完了,这几个星期应该会很轻松。
除了看戏还是看戏。
一月我就读完这个学期，得等到八月才有intake。
应该想想多过半年的假期应该做些什么。
旅行是一定的。我现在第一最想去的地方是越南。
谁想要和我一起去？？？
然后当然是打工。我要薪水越高越好，当然不是做犯法的。
应该开始发白日梦了。
没有梦又如何会有希望？

思斌不盲

还真有点侮辱周杰伦的歌。 -_-!!!

我不配

这街上太拥挤 太多人有秘密
玻璃上有雾气 在被隐藏起过去

这日子不再绿 又斑驳了几句
剩下搬空回忆的我 在房子里

这感觉已经不对 我努力在挽回

这感觉已经不对我最后 才了解

周杰伦-我不配

怪人！

在马来西亚很多人都不对政治没有兴趣。
我以前更本就不知道什么是政治。
现在我已经十九岁了，慢慢的我也接触到政治。
我会思考，我更有判断能力。
我知道的是马来西亚政治越来越黑暗，越来越有不可告知的一面。
我也觉得马来西亚政治越来越不可靠。
很多人会有一种想法，那就是：要是你有本事就移民。
要是每个人都这么想，马来西亚就快不是马来西亚了。

刚刚读到无聊小站的Nazrism，很清楚地可以看到马来西亚正面临的一切。
大家都认为是好的，一小部分的怪人却认为是坏的。
怪人！

彩虹

周杰伦 - 彩虹

作曲:周杰伦
作词:周杰伦


哪里有彩虹告诉我
能不能把我的愿望还给我
为什么天这么安静
所有灯影都跑我这里

有没有口罩一个给我
释怀说了太多就成真不了
也许时间是一种解药
也是我现在正服下的毒药
看不见你的笑 我怎么睡得着
你的身影这么近我却抱不到
没有地球 太阳开始围绕
没有理由 我也能自己逃
你要离开 我知道很简单
你说依赖 是我们的阻碍
就算放开 但能不能别没收我的爱
当作我最后才明白

有没有口罩一个给我
释怀说了太多就成真不了
也许时间是一种解药
也是我现在正服下的毒药
看不见你的笑 我怎么睡得着
你的身影这么近我却抱不到
没有地球 太阳开始围绕
没有理由 我也能自己逃
你要离开 我知道很简单
你说依赖 是我们的阻碍
就算放开 但能不能别没收我的爱
当作我最后才明白

RAP：
看不见你的笑
要我怎么睡得着
你的身影这么近我却抱不到
没有地球太阳开始环绕环绕
没有理由我也能自己走掉
是我说了太多就成真不了
也许时间是一种解药解药
也是我现在正服下的毒药
你要离开 我知道很简单
你说依赖 是我们的阻碍
就算放开 但能不能别没收我的爱
当作我最后才明白



我很喜欢这首歌的歌词。歌曲也很舒服。
现在的天气阴阴的。好像要下雨又没有下雨。
微微的风吹进我的房间，感觉非常好。
看到有人打篮球，也有人打网球。
原来世界也可以这么平静。

jay's latest song!

jay's new song. anybody heard of it?
i downloaded it from somewhere...
(don't sue me because i downloaded his new song. i still got buy his ORIGINAL album)
and it was soooo nice. huhu...
i only got 3 new song.
and i already booked for his lastest album...
hope to get it very very soon.

LAZY

too long didn't update.... nothing special happened i guess...
don't really have mood today... too bored? i also don't know.
i fall too deep into world of series... hahaha.... i am insane.
i finished watching grey's anatomy season 1,2,3 and now waiting for the season 4 episode 5.
also finished wathing prison break season 1,2 and now waiting for season 3 episode 6.
then watched criminal minds introduce by mymaple and going to finished watching too. i already download until season 3 episode 5.
what should i do/watch now?
i should be studying....
damn.... 'LAZY' virus coming back.

a story for you and me

i read a story from a blog. which is very very touching. i think most of us should read this. and remember about this story... it might be one part of your life someday. it really touched me. for boy or girl, man or women... read this.


''When I got home that night as my wife served dinner, I held her hand and said, I've got something to tell you. She sat down and ate quietly. Again I observed the hurt in her eyes.Suddenly I didn't know how to open my mouth. But I had to let her know what I was thinking. I want a divorce. I raised the topic calmly. She didn't seem to be annoyed by my words, instead she asked me softly,why? I avoided her question. This made her angry. She threw away the chopsticks and shouted at me, you are not a man! That night, we didn't talk to each other. She was weeping. I knew she wanted to find out what had happened to our marriage. But I could hardly give her a satisfactory answer; i had lost my heart to a lovely girl called Dew.

I didn't love her anymore. I just pitied her! With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which statedthat she could own our house, 30% shares of my company and the car.She glanced at it and then tore it into pieces. The woman who had spent ten years of her life with me had become a stranger. I felt sorry for her wasted time, resources and energy but I could not takeback what I had said for I loved Dew so dearly. Finally she cried loudly in front of me, which was what I had expected to see. To me her cry was actually a kind of release. The idea of divorce which had obsessed me for several weeks seemed to be firmer and clearer now.

The next day, I came back home very late and found her writingsomething at the table. I didn't have supper but went straight to sleep and fell asleep very fast because I was tired after an eventfulday with Dew. When I woke up, she was still there at the tablewriting. I just did not care so It urned over and was asleep again.

In the morning she presented her divorce conditions: she didn't want anything from me, but needed a month's notice before the divorce. She requested that in that one month we both struggle to live as normal alife as possible. Her reasons were simple: our son had his exams in a month's time and she didn't want to disrupt him with our broken marriage. This was agreeable to me.

But she had something more, she asked me to recall how I had carried her into out bridal room on our wedding day.She requested that everyday for the month's duration I carry her out of our bedroom to the front door ever morning. I thought she was going crazy. Just to make our last days together bearable I accepted her odd request. I told Dew about my wife s divorce conditions. She laughed loudly and thought it was absurd. No matter what tricks she applies,she has to face the divorce, she said scornfully.

My wife and I hadn't had any body contact since my divorce intention was explicitly expressed. So when I carried her out on the first day, we both appeared clumsy. Our son clapped behind us, daddy is holding mummy in his arms. His words brought me a sense of pain. From the bedroom to the sitting room, then to the door, I walked over ten meters with her in my arms. She closed her eyes and said softly, don't tell our son about the divorce. I nodded, feeling somewhat upset. I put her down outside the door. She went to wait for the bus to work. I drove alone to the office.


On the second day, both of us acted much more easily. She leaned on my chest.. I could smell the fragrance of her blouse. I realized that I hadn't looked at this woman carefully for a long time.I realized she was not young any more. There were fine wrinkles on her face, her hair was graying! Our marriage had taken its toll on her.For a minute I wondered what I had done to her. On the fourth day, when I lifted her up, I felt a sense of intimacy returning. This was the woman who had given ten years of her life to me.


On the fifth and sixth day, I realized that our sense of intimacy was growing again. I didn't tell Dew about this. It became easier to carry her as the month slipped by. Perhaps the everyday workout made me stronger. She was choosing what to wear one morning. She tried on quite a few dresses but could not find a suitable one. Then she sighed, all my dresses have grown bigger. I suddenly realized that she had grown so thin, that was the reason why I could carry her more easily.

Suddenly it hit me, .. she had buried so much pain and bitterness in her heart. Subconsciously I reached out and touched her head. Our son came in at the moment and said, Dad, it's time to carry mum out. To him, seeing his father carrying his mother out had become an essential part of hislife. My wife gestured to our son to come close rand hugged him tightly. I turned my face away because I was afraid I might change my mind at this last minute. I then held her in my arms, walkingf rom the bedroom, through the sitting room, to the hallway. Her hand surrounded my neck softly and naturally. I held her body tightly; it was just like our wedding day. But her much lighter weight made me sad.


On the last day, when I held her in my arms I could hardly move a step. Our son had gone to school.I held her tightly and said, I hadn't noticed that our life lacked intimacy. I drove to office... jumped out of the car swiftly without locking the door. I was afraid any delay would make me change my mind... I walked upstairs. Dew opened the door and I said to her,Sorry,Dew, I do not want the divorce anymore. She looked at me, astonished. Then touched my forehead. Do you have a fever? She said. I moved her hand off my head. Sorry, Dew, I said, I won't divorce. My marriage life was boring probably because she and I didn't value the details of our lives, not because we didn't love each other any more. Now I realized that since I carried her into my home on our wedding day I am supposed to hold her until death does us apart. Dew seemed to suddenly wake up. She gave me a loud slap and then slammed the door and burst into tears. I walked downstairs and droveaway. At the floral shop on the way, I ordered a bouquet of flowers for my wife. The salesgirl asked me what to write on the card. I smiled and wrote:I'll carry you out every morning until deaths does us apart.

The small details of our lives are what really matter in a relationship.It is not the mansion, the car, the property, the bank balance that matters. These create an environment conducive for happiness but cannot givehappiness in themselves. So find time to be your spouse's friend and do those little things foreach other that build intimacy.

mymaple tagged

游 戏 规 矩
举 办 人 出 问 题 （不 准 令 人 难 堪 的 问 题）， 然 后 再 Tag 人 （例 如 5 位）被 Tag 到 的 人 必 须 在 各 自 的 Blog 回 答 相 关， 然 后 各 自 再 出 问 题 再 Tag 另 外 5 个 人 （不 可 以 重 复 一 样 的 人 或 重 复 问 题）

枫叶的问题
1. 请 例 出 你 目 前 最 想 达 成 的 5 项 可 能 的 事， 并 附 上 你 自 设 的 期 限 和 原 因。
2. 请 例 出 5 件 最 让 你 气 愤 的 事， 附 上 原 因 和 消 怒 的 方 法。
3. 请 例 出 5个 你 最 想 感 谢/揍 扁 的 生 物， 附 上 原 因 和 你 欲 如 何 感 谢 或 揍 扁 你 提 及 的 生 物 的 方 法。（可 以 混 合。）

我的回答：
1. 请 例 出 你 目 前 最 想 达 成 的 5 项 可 能 的 事， 并 附 上 你 自 设 的 期 限 和 原 因。

• 搞好人与人之间的原系。感觉上我的人缘并不是很好。
• 放假时要到国外去旅行，更朋友或自己。我喜欢旅行，可是每次都和家人一起去，我想尝试自己去或和朋友去的感觉。
• 赚大钱！越多钱越好！我越来越现实，没办法。有钱可以做我想做的事。
• 定时运动，或去Gym。定时哦！很久没运动了，越来越懒惰。
• 得到我的自由！

2. 请 例 出 5 件 最 让 你 气 愤 的 事， 附 上 原 因 和 消 怒 的 方 法。

• 被mymaple tagged。因为要回复tagged，要不然他会诅咒我！tagged回他。
• 被朋友背叛，而且我当她是很要好的朋友。绝交。
• 不能上网。不能blog，不能chat。看戏。
• 考试成绩不好。尽全力还是考不好，谁不气愤啊！发泄。
• 还有一个…算了。

3. 请 例 出 5个 你 最 想 感 谢/揍 扁 的 生 物， 附 上 原 因 和 你 欲 如 何 感 谢 或 揍 扁 你 提 及 的 生 物 的 方 法。（可 以 混 合。）

• 感谢：所有认识我的人，所有我认识的人。没有你们，我就没有回忆。
• 揍扁：mymaple!!! 竟敢tagged我！

我不想tagged任何人，很累的。

p/s:不好意思啦！这么迟才回复你的tagged。好像有四个月之久。呵呵呵！